I had to painfully watch as Abby submitted her application to the university in North Carolina. Then we proceeded to cuddle and I told her I love her. But I feel her pull away... I feel despair everytime I say it. I get the feeling she wants to say it but she is trying to ease me into the fact that she'll disappear from my life, and everything I've ( Read more... )

I had to make a list that I keep right by my computer. A list that I can constantly read and embed into my mind ( Read more... )

I keep feeling down for some reason. Like even now, I should be really happy. It's almost christmas. I have a girlfriend. But no, just emptiness ( Read more... )

I know abby, you are a realist. I wish I was a realist too. But i just love you too much. I cant tell you this because I don't want you to be afraid. I want you to be happy. I wish you being happy involved me in your long term plans. Perhaps it does... but I just don't think moving to a different state for graduate school is just another "obstacle ( Read more... )

me and abby are now officially together ( Read more... )

no surprises. i feel that intense burning, watering in my eyes again. as I predicted, the only girl i've ever met who really understood me, the only person I could truly define as perfect, is leaving me. YET AGAIN, i am left alone. I made the mistake of thinking that in some reality I could be happy; that maybe, just maybe if i hoped or dreamed and ( Read more... )

i said i wasnt going to write here. but i need to tell something ( Read more... )

I think I should stop writing in here. No one reads it except me, and I don't seem to feel any better from writing down my thoughts ( Read more... )

Maybe being the hero is forgiving yourself.

An unburdened man is a superman.

in a world that makes no sense, in a life I cant control ( Read more... )