listening to a new gem I discovered ( Read more... )

my body is in texas.

but i feel like my soul is somewhere else, lost in tokyo, or climbing a mountain in finland. i wonder what its like to not be like me.

another week, another month, year, whatever. seems more and more blurred. awhile ago i found myself not being able to remember when i got my car. then it occurred to me that it had been 5 years and i suddenly felt much shittier and older than I did ( Read more... )

As a way to try and escape some of the perpetual stress that seems to plague my living moments, I have undertaken a small hobby, in which I try to control my dreams. I have had a little success at it so far, being only 3 nights in. So far I have successfully incubated 2 dreams - one fully successful, and one partially successful ( Read more... )

"Lieutenant! We have it locked in our sights! Should we prepare to fire?"
"No. We must wait until it reacts to our presence... we must see it burst into flames!"

and the coconut shell hardens.
does the inside taste any more bitter? only time will tell

I still cant help but feel like something is very wrong with me ( Read more... )

my job isnt really so bad, but i keep seeming to find faults in it. it could be alot worse.

im really tired and dont feel like typing, yet i also really want to post something on here.

ill write it with my eyes closed

nope too tired to do that. but at least im still breathing. gotta keep breathing. for some reason.

I question whether or not I should proceed in a venture dealing with a girl named leigh. I want to attempt to express sensual feelings towards her, but I struggle to define them, and am conflicted with the fact that their are both unfounded and unwanted. In expressing these feelings, I wish to remain completely aside from myself ( Read more... )

outside my very bubble there are large swarms of annoying people. In fact I rather find that people that should be very friendly to me are also quite annoying. The other day a woman was hitting on me. One part of me wanted to acknowledge her, and the other part just wanted her to go away. Not because she wasn't pretty, but because I didn't like her ( Read more... )

Josh seems to be getting more and more detached to social constructs. Much the same way as me. I am afraid that he will drop out of college because he can't pass calculus 2. that will be horrible, he needs that degree, and me and jose need our friend. but I dont know how to get through to him to keep going - there is nothing I can tell him about ( Read more... )