and i'll put the dream of you behind my eyes

knowing it will never become a reality

but my breath is stuck with you

hiding behind your eyes.

today had been such a hard day. i have yet to have one clear thought all day.  i couldn't concentrate in classes and then the phone rang at about 4:46pm and ruined everything.  i just don't understand, i know its not something i did but it just feels like it has to be my fault.  so many things are out of my control right now and i hate it.  when i ( Read more... )

i think at this point in my week, there are a million of places i would rather be.  i feel as if i am going crazy in my own house, there is no escape. even if i were to climb into one of the drawers that is my closet, it would still find me.  if i could, i would  be......

• jumping waves in galveston
• locked up in my room at my mom's house watching ( Read more... )

its been a while since i've felt this.....

fuck you and your untouchable face

i don't know how i always end up putting mself in situations like these.  for once, in a really really long time, i went out on a limb for somebody.  i opened up my feelings and actually said exactly what i was thinking/feeling.  i usally can break rules, other then my own but guess what i did? i decided to break my own.  and then the sun came up ( Read more... )

i feel that my feelings can best be expressed through the words of Mr. Dane Cook:

fuck this game-i am out! don't touch me grandpa. NANA IS A CHEATING WHORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

you can spend days just praying and hoping for that one thing that will just make everything that much easier at the current moment.  today i achieved it.  i am not sure how it finally found me today, it might have been the combination of: finishing a really good book, listening to the just right amount of Jason Mraz, and just feeling really lucky ( Read more... )

i think i may re-read that book.....its very worth it. but ia m all sorts of caught up in my H to the P

oh where to begin........bad day for me.

i think i am about ready to bash my faaace into the side of the wall.  oh and then after that, i am going to pull aaaalllll my hair out.  things are never the way they seem.  i have 3 days to get this ( Read more... )

this took me forever to do so you better fecking read the damn thing

LAST PERSON WHO
x. Slept in your bed: Brandon....like a week ago
x. Saw you cry: a lot of people
x. Made you cry: Gonzo
x. You shared a drink with: with jenni at the infamous hot tub
x. You went to the movies with: jenni, martina, jody and levi-Batman Begins
x. You went to the mall ( Read more... )

she lays

her face breathing in the smell of her pillow

her twisted boxers streched across her hips

she wonders when the sun will rise

she wonders if somebody is waiting for her somewhere

she prays someone is

she fakes her smile and

she whispers outloud......

i'll be the wings on your poem.

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