he knows how to ruin everything. i swear to fucking god, i have no faith or trust in him anymore.

what ever is in my dad's veins/arteries that lead to his heart has grown since 2 weeks ago. . . they dont know if its cancerous. . . he might be going to the hospital. . .

i have to be the strong one, i cant depend on anyone else. . . i have to do this on my own.

So, that why i have LJ. . . I woke up today to my mom pounding on the door and vacumming. The phone rang, and the easdropping started. "hello? Marc? What did the doctor say?. . . Well, do they know if its cancerous?. . . What do they want you to do now?. . . No Marc, we will not wait 2 weeks to find out!!. . . I'll call the doctor ( Read more... )

FUCK LJ. . . I JUST WROTE A 1 1/2 PAGES WORTH PF SHIT AND IT DELETED IT,

FUCK!!!!!

18 days till i'm 21. . . hopefully all of my friends will make it. . .

so tomorrow is our trip down to oclumbus, which is going to be weird. . . Neil (boyfriend and love of my life), Mitch (the one who i will always love and cant stop) and Zach (amazingly perfect in every way possible ( Read more... )

i took this from Jas, good luck, all u music fans. . . even though i probably wont get a reply ( Read more... )

so it's all over, the only shitty thing is that every1 who knew said that they would be there for me. . . brook was 3 hours away & ready to come down, talking to alex was great, and if lauren had her phone i would've loved having her there. . . on the other hand, i knew heather had to work, it would've kicked ass having her at least call me ( Read more... )

i'm here, i'm loved by friends & neil, i'm coping with pain, i'm still here

I don't even know where to start. . . i avoided LJ on halloween, kinda trying to ease the pain, i've written about it every year since i had LJ. . . So, making this part quick, easy & short (aka, no tears): Happy B-Day Debbie, I miss you, i love you, you were everything i could ever want to be, plus more. No one will ever be able to replace ( Read more... )