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mmm today was fun...I got up and ran at the health fair...and won...lol i actually ran a PR 21 flat....wow i was so ticked though i didnt break 21...oh well...they gave me a clock for winning....like this handcrafted analog mini-grandfather clock....i was like....right..okay ill run with this..lol...i think ill regift it. My step-mom would love it ( Read more... )

i feel better today...I just got back from my last home cross country meet (tear) and we kicked ass. Im always in a good mood when i run well...it gets out a lot of stress. my time was 21:30...on our home course which is a really fucking slow course and since my PR is 21:28 id say im on the right track...should be able to run under 21 min by ( Read more... )

a line is being drawn through my heart ( Read more... )

Sigh...things are....difficult. As hard as I try I'm still constantly wondering about my life....and if at some point i will ever be happy. I think maybe...sometimes...that when i move off, when my life finally makes a huge leap then i can start over with being happy. People are so lucky...they dont even know. I think about my father every day. Its ( Read more... )

So im at George Mason right now...Owen took me to a party last night...it was okay..i didnt drink much but we had fun. He's been driving me nuts lately. To be honest...i dont want to hear about how you want to kill yourself...it just makes me even more depressed about my life...i have been depressed for 2 years now and i dont need to be with ( Read more... )

blargh...its monday..nothing terrible really though i've really only got 2 classes today and both of them are ridiculously easy...stats and international relations. My classes seem so easy this year..i better not mess this up right?? Well here i am sitting in student involvement ( Read more... )

so where was i? ...right i dont feel comfortable with that at all..to be honest i thought i was the type of person who could trust people fully but i guess since michael ive put up a wall without even meaning to....and i dont want to hurt people i care about so i keep things from them if i think that it will....like with my mother. anyway thats ( Read more... )

Soo...I'm sitting in student involvement..doing nothing well because its only the 3rd day of school and Mr.Duckworth has nothing for me to do yet. Life has been going pretty well for the most part. Mom and i have been getting along somewhat following our most recent "falling-out" when i went to GMU to visit Owen without asking or telling her. oops ( Read more... )

i just want to go to the beach....thats all!! Ive been hinting and hinting to michael...we were supposed to go last week but it simply never happened...and now hes blowing me off for beach week! i mean..i understand he needs money for college...and im not really angry at him about that...but im just sick of having to beg and beg for things. A day ( Read more... )