So. This is what it's like. Being a man. I've always known, but in some way been avoiding it. I am still far from growing up. I am grown however. It's been a year since top surgery, 8 months since the separation, and I am just spinning. Don't really know what to do. She's made it clear it's over, so have I. So we are stuck in limbo. MNEH ( Read more... )

so what's going on? I had top surgery in early october with Dr. Brownstein.Let me just say that man should be a saint. I without a doubt, love my chest!!!! Life is now full of responsility and debt, but I go on, happily paying it off & enjoying my chest all at once ( Read more... )

I made it through surgery. i haven't seen it yet, but i'm sure it's wonderful. Dr. B. said everything went very well.

must walk a bit more, then SLEEP!!!!

So, the day I have been waiting for my entire life has come. I have never been so excited that I don't know what to do with myself. I'm so excited that I'm calm, if that makes any bit of sense. Everyone keeps asking if I'm nervous--and quite frankly, not in the least. I feel like I should be, but I am not. I just hope everything goes ok. I'm sure ( Read more... )

hmmm. what to say....still a surgeryless freak. still have crappy credit. i've got some great facial hair though!!!

...ok, i'm 23, and married. but i still want to act like a fricking teenager! So where is the line between being a mature adult and growing up. it's a pubescent phase that i missed out on as a man. i feel like i need to do some of these things in order to develope into whetever i will become. I still don't know who i am. I know i'm male. i know my ( Read more... )

i felt this was important to reiterate, it was important to me once and i think it is important now. I copied it from an old journal, which was in the memories, it was originally wooden_boy's post ( Read more... )

So I'm trying to deal with what my wife needs me to be, and the hormones running through my body. I feel like a 16 year old, I want to go play and be obnoxious, yet everyone is telling me to be a "man" for my wife. I don't even know what that is. Well I have an idea, I've had to destroy my preconcieved notions of manhood, becuase it all related to ( Read more... )