I hate having to sleep alone. And its 9 freakin in the morning, and I gotta be at work soon. And I don't want to go thats for damn sure. I couldn't sleep well at all last night. I felt like I barely slept and I feel like crapola. I didn't want to sleep alone the other night so I stayed at my friends house, I mean I still slept alone though, ( Read more... )

I wonder if writing about how I feel will help any?? I guess I won't know till i'm done. I think I need some damn hormone regulator pills or some shit. I swear my hormones fucking got psycho on me around the time of the month, during and a lil after. Geezus... I don't know what to do anymore. I over think things to much, and that gets me ( Read more... )

It was nice to be able to see David, although he didn't stay up very long, but he had to go to work in the morning. It was a little weird at first when I came over, I guess because i've been so mean to him and we've been fighting... but after he layed down, then I decided to lay down next to him... and he got all close to me and we cuddled... it ( Read more... )

OKAY... WHY am I still freakin up!!!????!!!! Its 4:19.. almost 4:20 AM... by this clock anyway! GRRRR! Jen needs to go to bed, and not be up all depressed. Hmmm... my dad will be getting up soon, great. When you have a lot of crap on your mind, stuff running thru your damn head, it makes you not sleepy or want to go to sleep. I guess thats ( Read more... )

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Why do we always have to fight? Why can't we get along? I seem like I try to want to make things right, but then we just end up fighting, so things just go to shit. Don't you just love it when you try to swallow and its all just fucking booger and snot all clogged up in your throat from crying!!??!! Well its nasty... and I shouldn't cry, but I ( Read more... )

I really do hate computers, I had written a shit load, and what do you know... THE DAMN COMPUTER FROZE!!!! And what I wrote is gone!! I guess i'll start over ( Read more... )

Well well well... where do I start... I'm not even sure where to even begin anymore.  I hate sharing my feelings because it never seems to help or matter really.  I always seem to mess something up, somehow or another.  And I feel like i'm just a fuck up.  Its just how I feel, sometimes its good to share whats on your mind, sometimes it seems its ( Read more... )

I think about you day and night

And I wish you would hold me tight

Even if it was just for one more night

And I sure do hate when we fight

I just wish we might make everything allright

thats all I have for now... maybe i'll add onto it later or something

Feeling so cold and alone
Believing in nothing seems easier
Believing in being alone seems how you will be
Wondering what may and may not happen seems obscure
Hoping for the best and wishing for the the near impossible it how it seems
Thinking maybe its all a dream when its all just reality
Hoping to wake up and and for it to be all over
Wondering why it ( Read more... )