Demotivation.

[mscuriousity]

GOD! I hate being emotional.

I assume all of this bs is tied to hormonal crap. Why can't they make some magical over-the-counter pill to cure miseries like this?

I feel like crying and simultaneously running away. Once again, I'm turning circles in the revolving door of wanting to leave Colorado. Right now, it honestly sounds wonderful to me to

Comments

[impatient_hands]

I think you need to do what will make you happy. If that means leaving Colorado for Indiana, do it. Would Beau go with you? I can only assume he would. Also, if you moved to Olympia, Seattle, or Portland we'd be able to hang out all the time (selfish, I know). Also, awesome music scenes in all three places. Even the winters here are green. The air always smells fresh and yes, the rain gets old but you learn to love it. The summers are awesome and the people are wonderful and all about community. Portland is a little friendlier than Seattle and Olympia might be too small of a city for you, but I think it would be awesome to have you in our neck of the woods. :)

[cx_taipan]

I really don't get how Colorado is holding you back from being an athlete. The entire Front Range is athlete Mecca. They didn't locate the Olympic Training center there for nothing. What sport isn't offered there? What am I missing?

[mscuriousity]

No, Colorado isn't holding me back from being an athlete. (The statement in the entry wasn't saying Colorado is holding me back. Rather, that because I am in Colorado I assumed that I would love being here... like all the athletes that utilize the terrain. It seems that there are quite a lot of outdoorsy-athletic types that love it here. I thought I would too, but I don't.)

In short, this entry is just saying that I envisioned Colorado as some wonderful ending place for me. I thought it would be everything I have always wanted... but the scenery isn't enough. I miss all the wonderful people, places, and memories I left behind when I left the midwest for the "promised land" of Colorado.