So I don't really know how to feel right now.  If you could tell me, that'd be awesome.

I've finally made my decision about where I'm going to continue my college education.  It was long, and sad, and real, but I know I've made the right decision.  I'm going to stay at UCLA.  It's hard to give all of the reasons why, but just know that it took a ( Read more... )

So I did it.  Right through the nose.  And yes, it did hurt.  But it was worth it because in a sense, it was liberating. Don't ask me why sticking a needle through your skin is a passage to freedom, it's just something different.  Everyone seems surprised that I got it done.  Maybe I like it so much for that reason.  I've always wanted my nose ( Read more... )

How lucky am I? Man am I lucky. I seem to forget this a lot, I get too wrapped up in confusing things and lose it. I should get something to help me remember, like a bracelet, or a nose piercing, or a tattoo. Or maybe I can just rediscover it in moments like these. I am breathing roses, life is beautiful, and I am truly lucky.

shafted again! gra... I'll write this here because i'm pretty sure neither of my sisters read this thing. I've been left behind again. They both got tattoos 2 months ago and never told me. I found a picture of Kelly's on Ry's computer... Everything I know about my sister's current lives I seem to find out through him, or through Alex, or my ( Read more... )

So there it was. The day that has long been my marker of progress and change, the day I said I would figure out the rest of my life. On April 30th I found out that I got accepted into Berkeley's College of Natural Resources as an Environmental Sciences major with a physical science emphasis! Although I don't exactly have everything figured out, ( Read more... )

What is with me?  I've been wanting to talk, like really talk for the longest time.  Things have been mulling about in my mind, colliding and creating this crazy energy that needs to get freed.  So what happens when I do get the opportunity to burst?  Then I do not have the voice.  Gra!  Fine, that's okay then.  Some day, some monumental day in the ( Read more... )

my head races, my palms sweat, my nerves are through the roof, i'm shaking. my heart is marching a parade in my chest, my stomach has flipped upside down and backward. Is this love's sweet effects? No... it's just finals week.

 Today Ry and I went to the central Los Angeles public library.  We were looking for a book that my mom suggested to me (And the Dish Ran Away With the Spoon - Janet Stevens), and we wound up wandering around for days.  It's such a beautiful place.  I love losing myself amongst books.  Just reaching out to a wall of books and finding something new ( Read more... )

I MISS THEATER!!! I feel these pains in my heart everytime I see good acting. It's like when you miss someone so much, you feel the holes they've left behind. There's a big hole in my soul since I left theater. I miss standing on a paint specked carpet, pouring all I had into being and understanding something I wasn't. Through it all I was ( Read more... )

                                             This is an amazing Salvador Dali painting


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