I know I haven't updated this in awhile but things haven't been all that interesting I'm mostly posting to vent about how pissed I am. Yesterday was my birthday and no one but Kate, Paul, Laurie and Scott (also my family and people I work with) even realized it and it makes me so mad because I sit here and have these supposed "best friends" who don ( Read more... )

I'm always told that I'm picky when it comes to guys and then one day I was told that I wasn't picky, I just didn't feel like I deserved anyone and I felt like someone had finally gotten it. And tonight I realize that this not only pertains to romantic intersts but friends as well. I don't feel like I'm good enough for them.

So the last week of my college career...I'm so ready to be done with things. With how everything has been going lately I just want to be done. I don't think I'm going to participate in graduation either. I just want to be out. My whole line of thinking is that no one but my parents can come, I can't hang out with my friends and be with them anyway ( Read more... )

I....i....um...Words aren't coming to me right now, which is ironic because I'm trying to update this journal. I don't think that I have EVER felt something fall out of my grasp this quickly. I don't understand, I won't until it happens to me (which is inevitable) but it doesn't mean that I can't be there for someone and listen to what they have to ( Read more... )

So, today was preparing for the festivities we like to call Fredfest. A quick trip to get money to get booze and if Linds hadn't have lost her work from her disk, I wouldn't really know my name right now. Oh well. I decided to go tanning again because I feel like it's one of "those" weekends...Or I'm hoping it will be anyway (meaning where a hookup ( Read more... )

So the deal is you have to reply and answer these questions and then put this in your live journal so people can answer about you ( Read more... )

I can't sleep, even on Tylenol night. And I want to. And I don't want to be sick anymore because I'm sick of being one of these whiny people where all they can talk about is how sick they are. Let me have a life where I'm not in bed by 10pm. And I don't want to be hungry anymore, and I am right now and it's too late to eat and yet I want to. ( Read more... )

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So I think this is my earliest entry to date. Anyway, I think I've found why I'm pretty much miserable all the time- it's my house. It's a pretty sad thing when you feel like you can't leave your room...Anyway, I was playing Heidi a project of mine she had played on and we were sitting in my room with the door just cracked. I had meant to close it ( Read more... )

So it was a typical Weds for the most part (Kelly- Where have you been? We miss you. Bart wasn't out though so you didn't miss much). Anyway, I was bored most of the night and Kate made me feel so guilty for sitting there because she asked me if I had anything else to do! Hey now! I like sitting there on Weds nights because its pretty much my night ( Read more... )