Grr..last night was a mishap. I put myself into these situations which my sex drive can't control and I get hurled into the world of sex.. Alcohol and I don't mix...well basically alcohol, boys, and then me don't go well together. Anways..another one to my list and I am yet no better then where I started. Go ahead, say what you will...it was my ( Read more... )

Times are changing and so am I...

Today is the beginning of my withdrawal ( Read more... )

Last night was...well it was sick. I decided that I was going to get trashed and ended up puking around 10 times..two of those times included pucking all over myself. Lets just say when I woke up this morning I was far from cheery ( Read more... )

Right now my brain is processing so many thoughts; I am confused. I want the comfort of a man, the security, the tight grip of there arms around you, the sensation you get when you cuddle..I want that. But I want that with out having to give into the temptation. It isn't even classified as a temptation as much as a "have to." Why can't guys just ( Read more... )

Can't really sleep. Tomorrow I have to get a root canal at one and then go to work at four..How fun does that sound?? I just felt like writing on here for real, for one time, and not when I'm fucked up. It seems, that lately, that is all I am anymore. I am not me but the person that the drug has altered and made. But, that what I like doing..I mean ( Read more... )

Cattell's 16 Factor Test Results
Warmth ||||||||||||||| 42% Intellect ||||||||||||||||||||| 62% Emotional Stability ||||||||||||||| 46% Aggressiveness ||||||||||||||||||||| 62% Liveliness ||||||||||||||||||||| 66% Dutifulness ||||||||||||||| 42% Social Assertiveness |||||||||||||||||||||||| 74% Sensitivity |||||||||||||||||| 58 ( Read more... )

4th of July was fun.. I had to work lunch then the managers asked me to host part of dinner because they were short.. Anyway, afterwards I got in the shower and Cara picked me up and we went over to Aaron's house.. On the way up there we smoked and watched fireworks. They had built a bonfire so we all chilled..I think I drank about 8 beers when I ( Read more... )

Today wasn’t as bad as predicted. I went to work fully refreshed and did an alright job. I came home and Heather, Phil, and I all smoked some.. Then later on I got in the shower and Stephen and I smoked on the way to the movies (saw spiderman 2), where we met up with Heather, Phil, Chad, Jessie, Franklin, and Emily. But just Heather, Phil, Stephen ( Read more... )

Today was yet, another, day off for me. It started with a lovely awakening, at 7am, from a sharp pain shooting inside the nerves of my tooth. I couldn't go back to sleep so I did a couple of things (one being, making a dentist apt for today). I washed my car and smoked some with Wayde. I recovered in about three hours and then got in the shower and ( Read more... )