Fuck my existence.

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So I get to see a behavioral counselor tomorrow. So I can talk about my nihilistic ways or pessimistic ways whatever it is.

I think I have depression. I can't concentrate on what should be important to me. I feel that almost everything is pointless. I wouldn't ever harm myself but sometimes I think it would be better if I had never been born. I should be doing well in school but I pretty much just blow it off and get distracted easily with trivial nonsense. Everything ( Read more... )

We had to put down our dog this morning.

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Badass.

I'm thinking about deleting anything related to social networking except this. But I know I'll probably get bored and come back to it so I don't delete it. It's a fucking paradox. So where are all the cool girls at? Like Where do they reside I want to know. I just want to find some super down to earth hippie type nerdy funny smart blah blah blah ( Read more... )

Kind of lonely lately it hasn't been as bad though. I got drunk tonight and didn't feel depressed for once. I wish a female liked me though. I'm a pretty nice guy I don't cheat or argue much. Pretty laid back. I wish kind of that Kayla was still with me. She motivated me to be something. She was what I had to look forward to in the future. I ( Read more... )

On Wednesday Jared and I went to explore an old abandoned mine near the Lost Dutchman trail head.

Parking Area.

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Drove to Tucson, saw Caribou. Simply an amazing show.