I'm done giving him chances.
It's so over.

I'm in the process of letting go, and it's fucking hard to do.
he won't stop lying to me over stupid pointless shit.
It's not a good habit, so i have to break it off, until he can change.

last night was horrible.
it felt like a nightmare :[

I believe the opposite of what everyone else does.
If you go right, ill say "fuck that" and go left.
I hate myself for that, but it can be a plus sometimes.
I'm a monster, and the funny thing is... I enjoy it.
In some kind of cruel, sick way.
It seems like everything i've ever held near and dear is gone now.
I hope this isn't permanent.

I tried a new drug today.
i liked it, but ignorance takes its toll on peoples minds and i got extremely irate, and still am.
I don't want to do this anymore.
I need a new group of friends, friends that understand, and are curious like me.
anyone?

I still love him..... even when he stabs me in the back. :/

welll valentines is tomorrow.. its gonna suck... mmmkkkk later

Tonight i made a secret oath, to keep chasing after you, and i am not going to stop, whether you like it or not.

wow.
im speechless.
yes, it is a bad thing.

Today didnt go as well as planned...
hmmm hope it goes better.... tomorrow.
sometmes i wish he didnt have a job. :[