When the weight of the world bears down so strong
You leave footprints on the street
And there’s too many miles to face
Without a few more hours sleep
The storm clouds overhead won’t shed
Any rain to quench your thirst
I wanna be the one you reach for first
When your faith is stretched so thin
That you can see straight through your soul
And you can’t find a ( Read more... )

So, I'm going to try something new.  I'm going to try to not worry so much, smile more, and tell the people I love that more often.

I've always been afraid of showing how I feel, or of acting like a dork.  But, apparently this had made me look miserable.  So, time to fix this.  I love being happy, I love smiling, I love making other people happy ( Read more... )

I am so sick of being broke.  I really wish I wasn't such a fucking screw up, and knew what the hell I wanted to do with my life and didn't take so long to fucking get my ass out of school.

I hate having to ask for money.

I hate barely being able to pay the few bills I have.

I hate felling like this.

It fucking pisses me off.

I just want to have a ( Read more... )

As usual, my mind is going 90 miles an hour, and I can't shut it off.  I'm starting to freak out a little bit.  So, I'm not really sure what to do about it.  I know I should just try not to think about it, and just do what is planned.  However, the closer that gets, the more I freak out.  Student teaching is planned to start this fall.  I would be ( Read more... )

I hate this time of year.

I'm cranky, pissy, and annoyed.  All the time.  Nothing seems to make me happy.  I want out.  I want out of here.  I want something different.  But do I know what I want? Nope.  What the fuck is wrong with me?

Oh wait, I know.  I'm a fucking moron.

I'm lazy, stupid, ugly, fat, and miserable.  I have a college degree, debt ( Read more... )

So, fall semester is over.  I have two out of three grades.  A-, A-, and whatever I get in my stupid research class.  As long as I pass I don't care.  I just want to be done with it.  It's the only class I've ever had that stresses me out that much.  No other class has ever upset me that much.  And I know I'm not the only one.

I think I'm getting ( Read more... )

I'm not entirely sure what has been wrong with me for the past month or two.  I've just been in such a shitty mood...

No particular reason, just miserable.  Completely miserable.  I don't want to do anything besides sleep and cuddle and do nothing.  I don't want to go to classes, I don't want to be around people.  But I don't want to be alone either ( Read more... )

So I'm in my second year of Graduate school.  For the most part I still like the classes and professors.  With the obvious exception of the devil woman herself that teaches Critical Thinking.  That class is going to be the bain of my existence, as it has been for many Grad Students in the Education program at Sage.  If I pass the damn class, I'll ( Read more... )

Before you met me i was a fairy princess
I caught frogs and called them prince
And made myself a queen
Before you knew me i traveled 'round the world
I slept in castles and fell in love
Because i was taught to dream
I found mayonnaise bottles and poked holes on top
To capture tinkerbell
They were just fireflies to the untrained eye
But i could always tell

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So it's summer, which means it's time to head to camp.  Taking a little bit of time off this summer, which isn't something I normally do.  I've taken off a day or two in the past, but not normally any more than that.  This year we're going up to Star Lake for almost a whole week.  I don't even know what we're gonna do for a week lol.  I hope it'll ( Read more... )