hahahahahah...soooo Melissa and I are watching Dont' Forget the Lyrics, and I decided to look up some lyrics...lol

You should've seen by the look in my eyes, baby
There was somethin missin
You should've known by the tone of my voice, maybe
But you didn't listen
You played dead
But you never bled
Instead you lay still in the grass
All coiled up ( Read more... )

So I've noticed I have this nasty habit of only updating this when I'm upset or mad or something, not usually when I'm happy.  So I figured for once I would at least post when I'm indifferent or kinda in a good mood instead of when I'm freaking out about something lol.

Although I have a boring life and not much to report lol.  But I am getting a ( Read more... )

Sooo I'm really not good at this whole waiting to hear back from Sage about Grad School.  Patience isn't always my strongest virtue, but I'm worse than normal about this.  Blah.  I just wanna know lol.

It's my last semester here at Brockport.  I'm happy, but scared.  I don't know how many times I've said recently that I'm scared.  I'm scared about Grad School, I'm scared about life after here, I'm just so scared about everything.  I don't know what's going on.  I don't know what I want right now.   I don't know if Grad School is going to work.  I ( Read more... )

Can't wait to be done.  Almost there.  Then I can sleep in a real bed, eat real food, and not have to do homework for six weeks.  Then back out here for a few more months, then I'll GRADUATE!  I soo can't wait.  A lot still has to be figured out, but nearly all of that will hinge on what happens over break when I apply to Sage.  But if all goes as ( Read more... )

Dropped off my transcript request today, so one more thing to mark off on my checklist for Grad School.  I need to suck it up and ask Ortiz for a letter of recommendation tomorrow.  Then I'd really be almost all set for when I go home in December.

I swear if she wasn't my mother I wouldn't talk to her.

So, dropped off the paperwork for my Music Minor and to drop my Philosophy Minor, which is good.  Hopefully that will all get taken care of on my DARS and Angel in the next couple of weeks.  As long as it's fixed before the end of the semester that's all I care really.

And when I talked to Natalie today she told me to just e-mail Hullfish about ( Read more... )

I need to quit it with this whole being ambitious thing, it's going to put me more in the poor house than I already am.

Ever since I decided I definitely wanted to be a teacher, that meant Grad school, and more debt.  Lovely.  Now that I've decided I want to get  some classes done outside of whichever Grad school I get into, it means spending more ( Read more... )

I'm still so scared...

I don't want to fuck up...

I don't want to screw up...

I want to do something right...

I'm sick of being a screw up...

I just hope to god that I didn't mess up too much already so much that it can't be fixed...

I'm trying not to worry...

I'm trying to be optimistic...

I'm trying to remember all the things that are going right in my ( Read more... )

So I really wish I could find a job that I'm just GOOD at naturally.  A job I like, that I'm good at, that I don't feel like an idiot because I don't know anything.  I'm just so sick and tired of feeling like a damn idiot at my jobs.  Doesn't matter which job it is, I just feel like an idiot at all of them, and it feels like I'll never be good at ( Read more... )