Have you ever felt so much hate for someone that you truly love deep down inside? Well I feel this every day of my fucking life. I can't do anything right. As a matter of fact I can't do anything period without someone bitching at me. This is starting to get fucking sicking. Its like this one person can bring me so far down and they don't give two ( Read more... )

Yesterday was the first day Josh didn't came over my house for a long time. It was HORRIBLE. I missed him so much it was unbelievable. Talk about being depressed. I don't want to do that ever again. But i don't know if he is coming over tonight because i made him mad. Seems like i can never keep anyone happy. I am always making everyone mad ( Read more... )

Well Josh is at work. Things have been going pretty good lately with him and I. Schools going good still, except one class that is like WAY over my head. But, I'm not the only one in my class that don't get it so i don't feel bad, I swear like 90% of the class don't get it only the dorky fuckers get it, Grrr. I haven't been doing a whole lot lately ( Read more... )

Well its been one hell of a week SO FAR. Things were going awesome. Life seemed to be going awesome... THEN BAM.. SMACK ACROSS THE FACE.. I FUCKED UP..things went down hill like they always seem to do.. But on the brighter side, everything seems to be picking back up again. And i wish that it would stay like this forever but HA like that would ( Read more... )

Josh had the worst week last week..First he paid to have his car fixed then he lost his phone and then his fucking car broke again!!!! what the fuck as soon as he thinks he's ahead of the game he gets knocked back twice as far. i feel bad for the poor kid. I feel so bad and just want to help him but how can i help? I Love him to death and when ( Read more... )

It's been a while...Not that it really matters who really reads this anyway ( Read more... )

I haven't really been doing much lately.. Spending a lot of time with Josh! which has been great! I love spending time with my babes!! lol like y'all don't already know that! i only say it every time i write in here probably! lol o well i like repeating myself ( Read more... )

Josh gets outta work at 10! yay i am going to see him!!! He has spent the past 3 days with me its been great!! I LOVE SPENDING TIME WITH HIM! hes definitely the best thing that has happened to me for the longest time!i am so happy we are doing good and having fun together! The more time we spend with each other makes it so i want to spend more and ( Read more... )

well I had two classes this morning...SHIT I HATE GETTING UP AT 6:30am it sucks balls, hairy ones at that. i thought i was going to pass out in class i was so tired. come my second class the power went out i guess there was a bad accident which blew the transformer up the road which cut off the power to our school. but we still had class..so then i ( Read more... )

It was my first day back to school. I only had one class. It was beyond boring and the teacher is a bit dingy. It's pretty funny just watching her talk. She's definitely not from Maine. I think this should be a pretty easy class considering all our test and exams are take-home and she said that if it snows we don't have to go to class! She seems ( Read more... )