Mom has cancer again.  I got into a car accident, crashed my boyfriends car into a fire hydrant. my car won't start anymore cause it's too cold. I don't know how i'm going to get to work tomorrow.

I don't really know what being happy feels like. I wonder if I'm being too picky. Should I be waiting around for him to make me happy again? reflecting on 2008 ( Read more... )

Just got a kitten. I am excited to get this tattoo colored.

I start a full time desk job January 7th. Next Monday. $11.50 an hour, sitting. It feels like I just sold my life, I don't know what I want to do yet. I thought I would enjoy DMACC, but it wasn't at all what I was expecting. Kelsea and my sister are in Bemidji, maybe I want to move up there? Do I want to get an apartment? Alone, in Iowa? I guess I ( Read more... )

I talked to Kelsea today, and somewhat told Megan I loved her. 
I think I'm going to make a life change soon, I don't have anything keeping me here except Billy and yet still, he knows about Minnesota, so I don't think it's a problem. 
I like having someone there, but I can't plan my life around anyone. 
Talking to Kelsea made me realize really how ( Read more... )

this journal can't explain the feeling i have now. i would like to draw it for you.

it's coming together

Baby, I’m An Anarchist!

through the best of times, through the worst of times. through nixon and through bush. do you remember '36, we went our seperate ways, you fought for Stalin and i fought for freedom. you believe in authority, i believe in myself. i'm a molotov cocktail, you're the dom perignon. baby, what's that confused look in your eye? ( Read more... )

well sweetheart. i'm missin two people, but the three i have are making me content as anything. bad influences? no, i think we just support each other, no matter what. kelsea is def too far away from me, why did i ever tell you about bemidji. bleh. i'm going to make something of myself and i will be with you again, idc how gay that sounded. it's ( Read more... )

tim the jew is in jail

:)

life, isn't going well