this will be my last post, at least for a while. i probably wont be reading it all that much either unfortunately. i just need time away from everything. also, i have cancelled my aol account, so if you want to email me its now only schizophrenLcat@verizon.net, unfortunately i dont check this all that often, maybe only 1 or 2 times a week. so be ( Read more... )

i had the day off and i was going to go to the city, hit the whitney biennial, sell cds to buy clothes at h&m, spy on food not bombs, meet some kid i met on myspace, go to a cheap vegetarian dinner benefit for books through bars, and perhaps, just PERHAPS! go to a club and dance if it was within my budget! instead: jess' car ended up in the shop, ( Read more... )

i recorded myself plucking each note individually on the guitar and ive been in the process of isolating each note into its own wav file so i can sequence them into perfectly rhythmic finger picked guitar songs, sometimes in physically impossible arrangements. it has a nice sound to it. so far ive only isolated the notes on the top and bottom ( Read more... )

its really coming down to it. things are sinking in. my heart just keeps breaking in slow motion every other day it seems.

last night i went to an open mic night at rutgers. i met a few really nice people, a couple poets, and some guy who just got back from a trip to argentina. it is one of the steps i have proposed to myself to branch out and meet more people, become involved. who knows! if i ever get that banjo maybe ill perform there one friday. im going to try to ( Read more... )

faced with much regret about being the apathetic/pathetic person ive been in the past, ive decided to change my ways as much as possible. ive made a list of things i plan to accomplish to some varying degrees this year in order to better myself as a person ( Read more... )

to make moving a little easier im getting rid of some stuff and id prefer friends to go away with stuff rather than nameless individuals scooping stuff up in used budget bins. disregard the gratuitous use of the word "stuff". my apologies. if youre interested in anything listed just contact me however you wish, first come first sereved however ( Read more... )

ive learned a lot about myself and about others this year. its going to take another year or so to accept and grow from the shock of it all. all i can hope is that i will in fact grow and not ever stop growing. ive learned about love, loss, friendships, relationships, intimacy, heartache, sensitivity, apathy, age, inactivity, loyalty, trust. ive ( Read more... )

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i made a trek through nyc today. spent hours digging through the holy trinity of record stores' used cd shelves. found some rare gems, 2 louis philippe albums 3 if you count that one is a double disc of two albums, vincent gallo's when album, red sleeping beauty's singles collection, and took a gamble picking up josef k's frontman paul haig's mid ( Read more... )