i do not blame anyone but myself for the hardships i suffer. i realize that everyone is their own person and no one owes any part of their lives to another. i rely too heavily on the comfort of others. i want everyone to know that i dont blame you for not always providing me with that comfort, i know it is not your fault. i also want to thank ( Read more... )

"Since trade ignores national boundaries and the manufacturer insists on having the world as a market, the law of his nation must follow him, and the doors of the nations which are closed against him must be battered down. Concessions obtained by financiers must be safeguarded by ministers of state, even if the sovereignty of unwilling nations be ( Read more... )

chavez in venezuela expatriated a US diplomat for espionage, and in return, like an elementary school student, we expatriated a venezuelan diplomat in response for no other reason than revenge. being in chavez's position of becoming independent from the united states and nationalizing their resources to benefit the majority of the population who ( Read more... )

i feel like i can do a billion things halfway decently, but i feel there is not one particular thing that i excell at. maybe parking backwards into a parking spot... i want to be the best at something. as of now i just feel like a bore with nothing special to offer anyone. being average suuuuucks. how could i ever be someone's favorite person this ( Read more... )

last night i had an episode where a lot of fears came crashing down on me and through me. it felt nice to have someone close to talk me through it. someone caring enough to put their hurt aside to help me in a time of need. i appreciate everyone. im sorry that sometimes i dont return phone calls. im sorry that sometimes i get so selfish/greedy/ ( Read more... )

yesterday i knocked my knee out of its socket again, this time at work and on the security tape, man id love a copy of that. i spilled a large cup full of coffee all over me when i did it. its a good thing it was not hot at all. it probably changed the customer's mind off of getting coffee when he saw that it didnt scald me. jess said i should ( Read more... )

went ice skating in the fog and rain. made improvements from last year yet fell on my last lap and almost cracked my skull open. but the good news is now i can play the piano beautifully.

i hope everyone had nice holidays. i enjoyed everyones gifts to me, thank you very much. i have been trying to save for a new computer, so that i can start making little cartoons. hopefully my tax return will be nice. whenever i finish one i can send them out on dvds to everyone, itll be fun. i miss you all a lot. i hope everyone stayed safe ( Read more... )

my head and heart are in a heated battle. sometimes one coaxes the other to sympathize, but then they struggle to the other end eventually too. do i give up the environment i love (and another important factor of the heart) to be with the stability of friends and family in the environment that i hate? do i need chaos in my life to progress? ( Read more... )

i realized that i need to build my self confidence; i dont want to burdon my relationships (friends, family, etc.) with any amount of jealousy i may get due to my lack of it. the jealousies i experience are not big and hindersome, but there should be no room for jealousy if i want to make those around me feel their most comfortable and free. ( Read more... )