2009 thats a interesting number ( Read more... )

WOW! I'm waiting for a divorce! who would of thought...those who knew that I was married. I'm so sad thinking about the married it's not even funny, he's with his old old girlfriend so why would he want to continue this madness with me? 2 1/2 years later and here he is, not responding my phone calls and it's silly but i feel save when I hold this ( Read more... )

I feel like I'm falling apart no matter how hard I try I'm not getting any closer to get to that damn light at the end of the tunnel! I could never be more happier then I am right now with chirs he's amazing but we both can't get out. I'm tired and I want to stop kicking, when is it my turn to be able to enjoy the beauty in life, when is it my turn ( Read more... )

I'm falling inlove!

is this real....is this smile really not something that was painted on, to cover my dreams and high hopes, I guess so...

I guess so...

whats this feeling that I'm having ( Read more... )

this thought might have gone through my head almost every day ( Read more... )

The First Time You ( Read more... )

When's the last time that you wrote someone's name on scrach paper, over and over until you can't see what color the paper is anymore?

funny story I haven't since high school. Until today bored at work finding myself writting his name over and over again.

"so when's the last time that you did it?"

I missed this feeling I missed waking up with that stupid smile that I can't seem to get rid of. I love this feeling I haven't felt this feeling in so long, I'm just not sure really how to act on it. this might be the first time in years that I felt like someone wants to be with me, other then the feeling that I'm just there for a pleasure need or ( Read more... )