Today has definately been a day of pondering ( Read more... )

I though I should start posting some of lyrics on here for everyone to read. This is one I wrote for my Mother, when she passed away, and read at her funeral (the music is yet to be finished), warning very sad and depressing but the message is uplifting in my opinion ( Read more... )

Life has changed very fast for me, and I really can not tell which way to turn. I have all these thoughts in my head wanting to direct myself to different routes. Some of these thoughts want to fill this endless void I have been feeling for quite sometime, and since my Mother passed on it has grown worse, another part of me wants to stick my hand ( Read more... )

Sorry I have not scribbled anything on this site in a while, actually not scribbled because I am typing so I guess mash buttons? Anyways I have been expierencing some interesting things with my life, I think I finally believe I know what I want and what I have to do to get it, I use to have this thought frame all of the time, but after the scaring ( Read more... )

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I have been smoking way too much lately, I believe I am at around a pack and a half to 2 packs a day right now. I do not know why I am smoking so much, pretty much started around the time my Mother passed away. I guess I am still not used to her being gone, I wish she was around right now so I can talk to her about my life and recieve her advice ( Read more... )

Something about plain rides roaring through the dead of night ( Read more... )

Man I am so confused, I seem to keep getting into crazy flings lately and stupid drama, and the bad thing is I try everything to stay out of it. Why does this always happen? I need a yelling at by Troy when I get back. haha Well anyways I have to get ready my cousin is taking on some crazy Cali trip again.

Well it is 7:51am over here and I am already drinking irish coffee but hey fuck I am on vacation, whew this stuff is strong, actually I did not use Whiskey I used a little bit of 151 I think I will regret this later on. Well the angels lost again last night damn, so it does not look like I will get to go to the world series, but hey I am happy I ( Read more... )

Well I have been in California for two days and it has been quite interesting so far. When I first arived here after the long, scary for myself since I hate flyingflying, and hazey flight, I drank a little before I came on hahaha, I was greeted by a chauffer that was sent for me, after I was dropped off at my cousins house I typed in the passcode ( Read more... )