Kristen commented to me yesterday that I might need to take my guitar and a piece of paper out to the Lake and be by myself for a time. The thought was emanating with peace. I wanted to go ( Read more... )

At this time two years ago, I had no idea what the world had in store for me. This time a year ago, I learned a hard truth. This time a year ago.... my sister had died and my grandfather was dying. Ryan and I were breaking for the upmteenth and final time. I was slaving away at a law firm, depressed with the secrets of it that I carried on my back ( Read more... )

I can always think of a million things to write in the journal, when I have no access to it. Yet, when I'm sitting here, in front of the screen, my mind draws a blank. A friend once told me that if I couldn't start writing, then I should write about how I couldn't find the words to write. I found that, over the years, to be mostly true. I have ( Read more... )

This life is so difficult sometimes... and perhaps I make it so. I really would love to go back to being a child. Cares seemed much simpler then ( Read more... )

It seems as though it has been years since I wrote in here. I always turn back to the trusty journal when I have no where else to go ( Read more... )

Did you know that I'm not known around the neighborhood as Rachel, but I'm known as "The Neighbor Girl"? Apparently, everyone in my neighborhood calls me that..... interesting.

Given the circumstances of my life lately, it's a miracle that I am ok. I scrape through the day, content enough to be alive, trying to notice the little beauties that this Earth has to offer. Suffering has it's place. Through my suffering, I have learned much. It has opened my eyes to let me see more but my heart is blackened by the truth of it

What do you do when a multi-millionaire that you have a crush on falls in love with you? But you have a boyfriend, who you love, but is kind of a loser? I need help....

I feel as if the humidity of the outside air has clung to my skin and I am drenched in a pool of foreboding. The air is thick and I can barely breath. I'm sick to my stomach and a pair of sweat pants with a t-shirt sounds like heaven right now. I only desire to go home, which is an odd feeling. I haven't exactly been enjoying my home lately, and ( Read more... )

It's amazing to look back and see how much you've grown... in personality, confidence, and friends. When I started this journal, I was married, miserable, and claimed no friends or confidence. It really is amazing how different I feel. I feel as if I've come into my own since then. I am enjoying my new self-confidence and my new found personal ( Read more... )