if someone did you a favor, something big. something you couldn't do on your own and in stead of paying it back, you paid it forward to 3 people and the next day they each paid forward to 3 more people. and the day after that those 27 people each paid it forward to
another 3 and each day everyone in turn paid it forward to 3 more people. in two ( Read more... )

well, it's officially offical. it's over. it's really honest to god, over. the reality of it is horrifying. it's slowly becoming worse then the day it happend. day after day, sitting here thinking about it. thinking how long could it have lasted if i had been different, how it could have been better if he would have been different. this is really ( Read more... )

i am fucking dead.

so, i got to see my friends tonight. it's been a long time. i wish i could have spent more time with them. it's weird now that everyone is kind of on with their own lives, their own girlfriends and all that. one day it'll just be us that can hang out though. we'll see. but it was a good time tonight. good to see old faces. i felt a little awkward ( Read more... )

one by one everything goes again. it doesn't feel so strong at first, but once it really sets in, it's more then anyone should have to endure. i don't understand life, and why things happen the way they do. just so we can die, and forget it all in the end. why....

it's too late to be living right now. i should be asleep. jon and i are going to look for jobs tomorrow. no more of these kid games. time to grow up, it was a nice couple weeks without a job though. sleeping in as late as i want, being able to eat during the day, being in the quiet. it'll be over soon, the silence, the meals, the sleeping...ive got ( Read more... )

well, my new years was as good as it could get. i could have asked for more then what i got. being with jon, being able to "let loose", seeing bob and sam. it was a great time. jon gets all the props for new years (some to ryan too for having us over).

sometimes i just don't feel as important as i should feel....

i don't know how much longer i can take being walked on like i am. this is getting to the point where i'm considering being alone. i just don;t understand how someone can be so heartless. i'm so hurt tonight. i can't even believe what happened. there is no way in hell if i showed up at his house randomly and he had a friend there, he would jump up ( Read more... )

i have nothing to do today. i really wanna go out to zion and see patton and everyone, but i can't get ahold of anyone! i was gonna go to kenosha to see brandon, but the drive is so yucky, and i don't really feel like driving on the toll way in the rain. plus, i don't feel like getting lost, since i don't  know where this venue is. i want to do ( Read more... )