For the first time in a while I have thought practical. Contemplating where I'll be in the next couple of months. I really don't have the first clue. I feel like I can only really focus on one thing. And it's either bass or GED test. I choose the bass. I like to say that I haven't given up on my test, but I have. I gave up on it the last time when ( Read more... )

And cannot let it slide ( Read more... )

I want this to work.

This time.

I could do a lot of things to change myself. Maybe I'm just lazy. I think I will sign up for my test again this week. I think I will try and do a lot of things this week. For starters I could clean my room. Pick up my bass, for real. The higher I get, the more I like it. I like not caring. I don't feel anything anymore. I really don't. I don't.

Bitch, I will ALWAYS win. You lost long before you were even in the game, so shut your goddamn mouth.

kthnxbai

It's time for me to find somebody. I don't want to be like everyone else. I can't take this for much longer. I need to find somebody that will give me back a thrill. I get tired of seeing people just throw it all away. Though, I understand how hard it is to have someone love you that you don't love back. It sucks. I don't want that. That's the ( Read more... )

I hope I passed my Ged so I can get a better job and move far far away.

I don't know what's wrong with me. My mother says I'm not acting like myself. Maybe I'm just acting like who I've become. I know I'm being a bitch. It could be because I'm on stackers. It could be that I just really hate coming home. My room is so filthy and I never feel like cleaning it. I just like having peace and quiet. I am just ready to get ( Read more... )

I hate work. I hate Gap.

I want somebody to hold me. Dance with me. Kiss me. And make me feel like I'm not empty and like I'm not missing. For five minutes. For a day. Even if they don't mean it. I just want somebody that will lie to me. Somebody that I want to lie to me. I don't want it to be real because I'm terrified.