Why is it that any girl that shows similiarities to me or has some spark of interest in me, I fall head over heels for. I mean I know it's infatuation, but I wish this part of me would just end. Talking about chips and movies. Cars and stupid things, and smiling at me and telling me about her home own. I know they have boyfriends, but why the ( Read more... )

I stare blankly at an email full of lies and spite. How did I deserve this? Oh! Yes I remember. Wounds do not heal. They fester from the start, and why do I want to open these said wounds. I'm a glutton for punishment I guess. Sadly she is gone, and i must move on. Blood flows mixed with red french wine. Sadly my mind is poetic yet ( Read more... )

I should be asleep but slept for two hours earlier. The wine isn't hitting me like last week. suddenly all the banging on the roof slowly is melting away. I'm listening to a new band I found on itune, and my mind misses the regret of the past, but I put that behind me. Can you really be depressed about not being depressed? How fucked is ( Read more... )

Well been back in L.A. for a week now. It's fun to run all my errands, and hitting the gym with vigor. I just decided to change some things. Sort of going for the retro look. Ha ha. I keep changing my look, and a girl at a shop called my taste in things weird ( Read more... )

Okay so it's 1 am in Austin,TX. I'm here on my last day on vacation. I start back to grad school in 4 days. I should be asleep since I have a flight in 5 hours. Things have made me realize that change is always coming. I realized that fate likes throwing curve balls, and I also realize that sometimes we get a second chance to see a person and ( Read more... )

Well I bought my plane ticket for Austin. I should be in Texas on Wednesday on 19th of this month. I'll be there four days. I need this vacation. Maybe I'll celebrate my birthday in the bay area next year. Ugh so much stress from school and work. I thought I figured everything about the world, but now I'm as clueless as I started. Oh ( Read more... )

Funny how things revert back to the old ways. With saint around my neck and the devil in my pocket. I wear a jacket of skulls and death, but I'm not grim *grin*. I'm just morbid ha ha. I don't think I will be dark as I was when I was younger. I think if I tried I would end up looney. I have the gym tomorrow. I should have ran tonight but I ( Read more... )

Things are always changing, and plans and new plans are always made. My mind is slowly becoming different. I bought some vitamins today from Whole Foods. I feel good so far, and going to the gym is extra fun. I like running and singing to songs on my ipod. I know I sound different, but this vacation is making feel a little chipper. I went to ( Read more... )

Clearity in drunkness. I sometimes can smell the fack plastic nature of hollywood in Los Angeles on certain nights. It's so thick and strong, and sometimes I wonder when will the plastic ends, and the world begins. How sad he tragic world can be but sometimes I admire it the most. Sadly I want to be sober but plastic is dead in my vein.

The perfect moment is long but hardly been said and gone. When young we think that the moment is perfect and is of our doing. How selfish and immature we are to think that a moment can be remembered and savored to our whim. Only with time and age we realize tha the perfect tender moment of love and living comes from memories. These rememberances ( Read more... )