So it seems a girl that seems to know my name and has vague knowledge of my last name is sort of stalking me. Ha ha. You know what I'm talking about. When your heavy crushin on a person and seeing that person lifts your spirits. Anyways lets say I'm a little curious. No I will not pursue. Because first of all I don't know what she looks ( Read more... )

The wine is going and flluttering in my mind. And forgive the typos, but tragic as the death of many grapes All I can do is write about the lingering mind. The french bread and cheese can hardly cope with the alcoholic grapes that attack my soul. Today I saw a brief glimmer of the world as I sit in a concentrated citadel in my own keep. ( Read more... )

Another Friday, and I just shut the door so the artifical air cooler does not over heat in my office. It is odd to think that as I shut the door I see the branches sway against the wind. Yet there is a deafening silence as if no noise can be possibly made, and I wonder if that is what one part of death is like. To be devoid of any sound or ( Read more... )

Have you ever seen a scene in a movie when a character goes through double doors as if pushing his way out to freedom. He has the smile of satisfaction on his face. I was envied that smile. I always wondered what he was thinking as he leaped into the great unknown with a toothy smile. I found it perplexing and yet trivial, but I would like to ( Read more... )

So this month has been killer on me. I had a pitch meeting 2 weeks ago with some producer friends I worked for when they did television. Their next project is to make a feature indie film. Lately they have been wanting drafts every week. When I went in I was told any amount of pages is good, but now I'm in charge of Act 3. I don't mind it ( Read more... )

I saw a couple pictures of me during my years in college. Wow have I changed, and maybe it is vanity in me to think that I would want to be how I am now. Maybe it is narcissm I have that makes me admire the way women grin and stare when I walk by. I doubt they see me smirk as I pass them, but it is nice to make a person long for a moment. How ( Read more... )

All week and all the days that I walk I feel a pressure in my head. It sucks to have a headache, but I guess maybe it is a little bit of stress. To worry about the unknown is such a common thing to jump to, and when dreams seem like curses and love makes you want to tie Cupid to a wirling board and toss knives at him then it is time to go. ( Read more... )

A simple thought to think that lingers in my mind. I feel I should go deeper into my isolation. I desire for the past month to go to Korea and travel a land where people don't understand what I'm saying or neither do I. Watching four season and walking alone in a land where nobody knows what I say or understand what they say. Disappearing into ( Read more... )

As all things the great philosophy of past and present is under the influence of Bachas or from other stimuli. I stare at the idea of the future and I grow scared since it is uncharted water, but I have courage that something must be done. I feel the ocean of chaos makes me a little sad, and it isn't depression. It isn't expectations, but ( Read more... )

It's hard to find one's self in all this confusion, and redefine the abilities of your own goals. To dream is the easy part but to follow through seems to be the greatest courage. People find each other to solve that dilemma, but I'm all by myself in this one. It is easy to sink in to despair to slowly think about it. What a wave depression ( Read more... )