Tonight I found out that I won't be the failure in life. I always saw myself if I was given a chance I would be a great love. My heart would be my strength if given the chance, but I realized there is no chance and there is no what ifs. Only the cold fact that I will always passs the opportunity to find the girl in this world. I'm not depressed ( Read more... )

Inspiration and love lingers in the mind of all poets and dreamers. Those who have it early are lucky to find it so close to birth. Those who are bitter find it close to the end of theirs. How tragic is it when both never collide? Yet it is intoxication that makes wisdom come to the forefront. How sad are we when the truth only comes out in ( Read more... )

I had a funny conversation with my coworker about what I was thinking about making tragic stories? I told her my goal is to bring darkness into the screen. A sense of tragedy maybe a little black in their soul, and she said that she was older then me and that I should listen to her. I just haven't met that person that made my mind race a ( Read more... )

Well I have been trying to work on a couple short stories. I came up with a comedy and a music video. Ugh this one song that is from an Anime is very sad. I think I am going to use the music as the dialgue for the music video. The song is in Japanese and maybe we will subtitle it in post, but I think it is very good. It is some what ( Read more... )

It's late at night and I guess I have so much weighing on my mind. Just a thought: How simple is it to dwell in the misery and emotional chaos that makes us full of conflict? I know it is stupid but I have been down for a good part of my life and sometimes my art shows it. Today I realized that things are not ment to be like this, that the ( Read more... )

Okay so the films are submited to our first film festival competition. So hopefully I get word that we place somewhere in December. UGH!! I hope so. Well I am trying to work on another script idea, but I feel so tired that on the first character description I give up. Ha ha. Not a very good start. I also had this idea in my head for a music ( Read more... )

Well two of our films are edited and ready to have music sinked to it. Tomorrow I have to strap up my guitar and play a song with my co director. I'm sort of getting down lately because I have a sinking feeling that I have reached the end of my tither. Confusion and frustration are slowly sinking into my soul, and I know people are still asking ( Read more... )

So this past weekend was hot and grueling. We had no ac and the light kits we were using was no help at all. The actresses spent 4 hours in make up, and most of them were not happy campers. Yet the footage came out so well. I was frustrated and burned out when I stared at my chicken breast burger and the tv screen. At first the film came out ( Read more... )

Well this weekend I drank a lot of wine at home and watched tv. I worked on my poetry. Weird and I feel that I have neglected this journal. Currently I just finished a read through with my cast for four shorts. I have a two week break. I'm so tired of planning and doing meetings. Our first shoot is on June 25 and 26. I just want it to be ( Read more... )

Well let's see what's going on so far. I just picked up a book and man is it good. I should have raed it a long time ago. I guess I can relate to one of the characters, but the book is called "The Picture of Dorian Gray" by Oscar Wilde. I also found this really hip tea shop in Hollywood and Vine next to the book store. Maybe when I retire from ( Read more... )