Ya Allah, this year, this Ramazan, you teach me again to let go of the past, to let it drain out of my veins and tissues. And you teach me, again, to form bonds only to you first, that all else falls away, that all else in this dunya-samasara should be lvoed but for your sake alone, knowing that you will take or give. You give, you take away ( Read more... )

Randomly, I have not only applied to an elite institution for a postdoc (and been shortlisted) but I keep coming around to reading things and watching programs that teach me something about the way people in these environments think. Of course one part of me just abhors all of it. Its so gross to think about being around people who actually ( Read more... )

'Of all that is written, I love only what a person has written with blood. Write with blood, and you will find that blood is spirit.' F.N.

Tonight I knew that I couldn't go to sleep without writing this. I had to make some tea, quietly, long after my mother had fallen asleep near the kitchen. She was weak and grumpy from a week of enthusiasticlly and cheerfully overworking herself on what we all feel may be one of her best theater productions yet. As tired as I am, I keep going back ( Read more... )

Its time for me to share a story, one inspired by an encounter with a women's spirituality group, mainly made up of Episcopalian women, many of whom are priests, a community called 'St. Hildegard's'. When we moved into the final session of our time together this weekend, we were asked to reflect on what it means to be 'called' to something and ( Read more... )

Today I have been sitting and connecting with the Divine Mother, God's divine qualities and archetypes embodied in, among others, the Virgin Mary, the Divine Womb spoken of in Islamic mysticism, the Hindu Divine Mother figures...you know the examples ( Read more... )

Today is very different. Today I have an accute kind of concentration and an antenna open to the ethers, to see what I can do to move things along ( Read more... )

So tonight and tomorrow I begin my new project of learning to do online trading, beginning with currency trading ( Read more... )

I woke up this morning, after last night's reflections, and I was sad. I heard my mother leaving and saying goodbye to the dog. I tend to have a pervasive sense of sadness and almost pity, about my mother. Recently I did a small ritual working to cleanse the space and that lifts the atmosphere considerably ( Read more... )

In my case they do go together. I realized today that I am finally fully and truly coming to accept something that much of my life I could not really acknowledge; When I was a boy and mom was out pursuing her interests while I had little to eat and was left alone for days or weeks at a time, I really just saw that as neglect. And in the last weeks ( Read more... )