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today
...I am trying to refind my focus and possibly finish and sumbit an article I have been revising for a publication sense forever. This weekend will be a busy one as I start engaging again with the body more (doing a Chinese martial art called Hsing I) and uncover a bit of the work I did on my relationship with my mother, during a family ( Read more... ) -
failing
I often feel that my academic work will never be good enough. Or, that is, it will never be good enough for me because I always seem my work as falling through the cracks of the really impressive work that others are doing elsewhere. I can find those others in many places and institutions. I don't know if I just question this or simply be more ( Read more... ) -
pieces
I continue to lovingly hold all the parts of myself, whether they seem acceptable or not, to others or to myself...all and every part of myself... -
traditional heailng, busy living
Yesterday I decided to pull out all the stops in terms of my knowledge in the traditional healing arts or the traditional as I have (with the help of my healing guides and teachers) been able to adapt to the modernish and international life that I lead. I needed to do that last night with every cell of mine in order to be here whole and clear today ( Read more... ) -
finally
...you've made almost no effort to resond for me, respond to me ( Read more... ) -
teslim
and so it seems now that what I have to say or write, if it is of any real value, only comes forward in poetry or something like it.... -
surrender...
surrender, even to this ( Read more... ) -
in-between
There are times when it needs to be danced, times when it needs to be drawn. There are moments when it must be acted out, theatre, for others to witness. There are times when it must be all silent. There are so many times when it seems I must write it down because nothing else will heal, express, process it, when nothing else can really be done ( Read more... ) -
catharsis-kenosis
Coming again to this page, I am reminded of why I come here: to empty myself. There was a time (and this still is the case to some degree) that I could not make so much use of of this medium because I was so attached to so many unhelpful stories. I was in a place of deep inquiry, of moving beyond the eagle of thought as it is called in my healing ( Read more... )