I have wanted to rediscover my lost inner poet for some time. I remember that he used to be around many years ago, when I was young and spent lots of time fantasizing about living in other cultures, places and times, or writing love letters to God ( Read more... )

So, apparently, when I start making plans to go to Mexico I get some kind of gastritis/ulcer, just like I did the day I left there in some kind of freakiy break-down. Some part of me thinks I will never have a real home for the rest of my life, if I move to Mexico for one year. Go figure. I never have to be medicated for psycho-somatic illnesses. ( Read more... )

Newer forms of spirituality based on recent inspiration/revelation can be legitimate. They have the disadvantage of being less tested, perhaps, but they also come without the complications and baggage of history and long associations. They may not necessarily need to contrast particularly or contradict more established forms of belief and practice ( Read more... )

Another day in front of the screen, in which I always make the intention to get more done than the day before ( Read more... )

Its no nearly the end of February and ı had thought that by now I would have known more about where life is headed in the Fall. And yet, I am not so terribly upset about that (it is actually quite early for jobs, only late, perhaps, in terms of having done more work for grants and funding). The main reason why is that I am more and more diving into ( Read more... )

If I had to put some labels on what is manifesting in my heart these days, it is a desire for and experience of cleansing. My mind and heart are seeking to be rid of the old patterns, mostly those that involve obsession and indulgence. I remember the way that Elena, in her last meeting with me before she died, did a powerful casting out of the ( Read more... )

I want to record briefly, before going to bed, some things ( Read more... )

Well, bismillah, my last post is perhaps a good intro here. Yes I had been drawn of late more and more to the earth in many senses, on my spiritual path. In a way, I have moments where my path takes me closer to the apparently non-spiritual and material, in a paradoxical way. The ideal of Marifat is that after tasting and realising truth (and it ( Read more... )

Just a quck note here, to remind myself of a subject for later: I am increasingly looking at the importance of embodied spirituality and what is called 'marifa' in Sufism (marifet in modern Turkish). I want to share later why this is a relevant topic for me today, after the last few days of returning to this theme ( Read more... )

...I now know what it is that I am meant to do with my sense of homelessness and displacement: its time to make it a kind of fodder for creativity and see where it could go. My recent experiment using a shamanic journeying technique really impacted a part of me that is trying to be heard and experience and re-connected. So, let's see what can come ( Read more... )