Today I am a bt haunted by two things (which also means, potentially transformed by them!). One is the way that I hold some sort of hurt about a particular friend of mine and another is guilt I have about being on a little research sabbatical, despite not actually feeling that I have earned it. I spent an immense amoutn of time slowly putting ( Read more... )

Bismillah. Last night I had important dreams, interesting ones that continue to open up certain feelings and healings during the day today. In this dream, I saw myself in a place that might have been Iran. Near a fountain or some public landmark, a lion attacks a human being and actually eats him in front of me and a stunned crown of people ( Read more... )

A bizare few days it has been. I have not eaten anything in two days, after vomiting all night Saturday despite eating the exact same food as everyone else around me for the preceding few hours. This has happened to me a few times and it always mystifies me. Why do I always get the 'bad food' everyone else seems to avoid or, as my boyfriend asked ( Read more... )

(How postmodern that blogposts start with no introduction and end, generally, with no real conclusion ( Read more... )

Last night I learned that my partner 'cheated' on me and I was ok with it. I saw Armenians murdered...It was a different sort of day, to say the least ( Read more... )

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I am doing good work at the moment, but feel as though it may have included abandoning some of my worldly duties, like the writing of an article I am working on ( Read more... )

Bisimillah ir Rahman ir Rahim. Well, entering into the second day of Ramazan has brought with it a profound need to express some things,although ı always ahve my doubts that they will actually comginf from my fingers and show up on this page quite the way I want them to. I have finally found some rest after the last months of stress and I may even ( Read more... )

I am having one of my less than enlightened moments today in which a small act by someone has somehow prompted me to gut myself of much of my personal power. This needs to be looked at in the light of inquiry. I am trying to look at core beliefs that I have which create a problematic emotional situation for me under these circumstances, but I am ( Read more... )

Often, I have come to this space to express frustrations or to explain the dilemmas I am currently stumped by (it seems there is always one or another) but now I am looking a bit at some of the resolutions I have been finding and the suggestions from within that. So, I am a bit afraid that some of my insights will not be kept, at least not in my ( Read more... )