Why can't anything ever just be what it is? I don't sleep like I should. My stomach isn't exactly right. I'm never exactly on time. No matter how hard I try I always offend SOMEONE. I am the one by myself at the end of the day. I love and I hate but in the end I just hate. I say I'm someone I'm not. I wish but what does wishing get us when we never ( Read more... )

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So I haven't written anything in Goddamn forever. (Is it PC to capitalize God when writing Goddamn?) I think it's mainly because I have been too busy and tired with work. Maybe it is because I have nothing to say to anyone that I haven't already told them in person. I haven't been depressed in a long while and it is a strange feeling to not have ( Read more... )

This is not a real entry but because I was told what people adore about me, I am now morally obligated (although I have no morals) to post this. This is stolen from someone who stole it from someone else who I'm sure stole it from someone who stole it from someone else... and on and on... You Goddamn thieves ( Read more... )

When everything in your life becomes an afterthought, a shadow of something else is it time to throw in the towel? Shouldn't the things we think and see and do be active, living breathing things, rather than things that resemble something else, something we saw once in a movie or read about in a book or heard someone else talking about in some ( Read more... )

I've been having these terrible dreams and I wake up in the middle of the night and it takes me forever to figure out where I am and why my whole body feels like it's been hit by a mack truck. Everything has become some new form of strange that I can no longer classify. The people we love, we now hate and we desperately grasp for something, ( Read more... )

You Are Tequilla


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I don't know why I still let him affect me this way... after all this time... It's like a pot simmering on a stove... for two god damn years... I'm usually ok with it... but things like this just occasionally happen and throw me... I normally love the unexpected, but not this kind of unexpected. This is just bad and unpleasant and makes me want to ( Read more... )

In these days when anything is possible and love masquerades as a lie and wars are fought on foreign battlegrounds it is more important than ever to remember where it is we have come from and which roads we have travelled because if we lose sight of those essential elements of the human condition then we die inside. I am already dead inside. Do you ( Read more... )

The best statement I heard made today was "Heroin is my religion" and I feel as though I should not be so happy about that statement. It amused me to no end though. However the relevance of that information to my current state of mind is little to none. The relevance of anything to my current state of mind is little to none... I don't know what my ( Read more... )