it has been so long. i just have to vent. ryan thinks he can do what ever he wants, when ever, just because he has a "hobby" and friends. I'm so sick of it. honestly, i throw a temper tantrum once in a blue moon and he crawls up in a ball and runs away from every confrontation. it's so funny how he can fall asleep so quickly when we get into an ( Read more... )

First time posting from the iPhone. I went to bed and woke up this morning thinking that everything was going to be ok, and that I would be fine. But its raining outside and I dont want to be at work and all I can think about is how all summer we met for lunch and how that will prob never happen again. Im just fweling down today. It looks like he ( Read more... )

Yesterday was the first day I really felt numb, and more scared than anything. Scared that as each day that I wasnt in his life, the more he wouldnt want me back. I feel like I've cried almost all my tears, and all I can do now is just go on with my life and wait. I had a dream before that we were both at some concert, and I was supposed to meet ( Read more... )

1 week tonight.

I really do hate myself. I went to Pat's house last night b/c he was having a party and drank and got super depressed. I mean as if I wasnt depressed enough. And then I looked at his Photoblog and it just broke my heart. It looked like he was at some kind of club or something. I lost it and I tried calling him but no answer. And I left a ( Read more... )

I miss driving up to 85 Greenhill Rd only to find that every light in the house was on. Walking in the door with Dorothy waiting at the top of the stairs, tail wagging, waiting to greet me. Going down the hall opening up Ry's door to see him on that computer working on his projects. I miss hearing him tell me about all the drama going on at work ( Read more... )

So here I go. I know he is going to read this, and I really thought about making it a private message, but I feel like all hope is lost, so it doesnt even matter anyway. It's so hard to keep a positive voice in the back of my head ( Read more... )

Come back to me Ry. Just please, follow your heart back to me.

Every relationship varies and it is important that every couple understands that taking time apart is not a substitute for fixing or solving problems, because if you part when you are having problems, they will be waiting for you when you meet again- so it is essential that you talk about your issues first before you decide a break is needed and ( Read more... )

Alright, I dont even know where to begin. My moods and emotions go from one point to the other in the matter of seconds. One minute I'm laughing and the next minute I'm crying. I did it, I called him to find out what was really going through his head. He said he needed some time alone to be by himself, and there he was texting me. I didnt ( Read more... )