i want my own family. i wish there was a way to know that something like that is possible. i just want to be assured. to be blown away...

you know what? ... FUCK ( Read more... )

I absolutely hate how life is going right now. Everyday is pretty much the same. Everday i feel like im waiting for answers that wont come. Alot of days i wonder what im holding on for. Is he really worth the wait. Is it worth so much pain. I feel like the worst is over now (at least this time around).. but will things really get better ( Read more... )

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK ( Read more... )

you ever get that sinking feeling in your heart and no matter what you do it only gets worse as each minute ticks by? everything feels like shit right now and i only feel like its gunna get worse. and this time if it gets worse im not going to stick around to let it get better this time. if something happens this time im totally through. i cant ( Read more... )

i just keep continuing to get worse and worse... i cant stop crying my self to sleep every single night. the pains getting too much to take and my physical body's startin to suffer too. so much so ive been to like 3 diff docs in 2 days. im just constantly hurtin and full of anger now which never happens to me. and now skool starts monday and im ( Read more... )

the pain only gets worse and worse. i have physical pain every time i breathe. my chest hurts. everything hurts. on top of everything my dads been drinking again and yelling at me. today he fell asleep laying in the hall with his head against my door. i have no idea why but it scared me and i couldnt get into my room without awakening the drunk ( Read more... )

all i can say is.. that dreams really do come true

too bad all i have are nightmares

everything that i love is gone
and im tired of hangin on

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting ( Read more... )

i have a bad habit of falling for the wrong people... people who cant show me that they care the way i need them to. ive been hurting far too much for far too long and i feel like its my fault for caring too much. but i cant change who i am. so i guess ill always continue to hurt as long as im myself bc ppl just cant fall in love with someone like