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i started reading Ecclesiastes yesterday, actually doing lectio divina on it ( Read more... )

Here's a random confession for all to know... for a long time now i've highly considered dying better than living...the end of pain the end of grief, the end of worries, the end of depression, the end of stress, the end of heartache. Today brad said something that really stuck to me ( Read more... )

Life is changing tonight, Jonathan is coming back from his other mom's at any moment. No notification except for a phone call asking if she can drop him off tonight. I feel really UNCONSIDERED, not just by her, but by others and i interepretted that as not being worth consideration. and i interepretted that as being worthless.

This quote hit home with how I can be very selfish. It really made me check my motives.

"If you love someone because they always try to please you, because they do only what you want him to do, that is not love. That is just a round-about way of loving yourself."

saturday is supposed to be a day of rest so what have i done so far today...sleep ( Read more... )

So this whole livejournal thing is going kindof weird. I know that it's natural to everyone on here to just sit down and type out pieces of their life. I think that my two main obstacles are 1. I don't think anyone cares 2. Aren't there more important things to be doing? I have to fight both of these because I do see Livejournal as a powerful ( Read more... )

Yesterday Brad and I went on a crazy date to Galveston, I kind of knew that's where he was taking me, because he's wanted to go on a spontaneous trip like that for a while now. We got to run like chickens with our heads cut off so we wouldn't get caught in the storm weather, then we watched the storm lightning over the gulf with our newly ( Read more... )

So leesa's whole dream posting thing has inspired me. I had a weird dream last night that I was swimming backstroke laps in a pool, and I kept bumping into things and going under water (very unchorinated (sp?)) and it was like I was back in highschool or college, and i was thinking to myself "At least this time I know what I didn't know then, but ( Read more... )

I've never been into the whole 'job' thing and I hate drama, especially when it's over petty work stuff. So i'm trying to clear out my brain of all the rubbish and nonsense and drama that happened today. That is not what I care about, that is not my life, and that is not my focus. I think that i'm starting to relate to what Leesa said about her ( Read more... )