Everytime I have a hard day with the kids at work, I think its because I lack some skill that would make the job easier. If only they liked me more, if only I had that special "it" factor, they would respond positively. These kids do and say things for attention...blah blah blah. Whatever, all I know is it would be nice to come home and have a ( Read more... )

Before I was who I am now, I was this little kid. I can't get over how stupid I was and am. I didn't think about how, this is it. Now, I have these minor panic attacks in the middle of the day because I know that this is the one chance I get of life on earth. Please don't drive drunk, please just call me. Because he's gone now. That was it ( Read more... )

Had a blast at Nola tonight with jess and a new friend which is super. Love new friends. Love hanging out with people who i can just be me with and not even just me; Someone I wish I was like more often. i could write a book about this person's spirit and general thrill for life but I'm not going to. Because I am still learning ( Read more... )

i keep having the same revelation over and over. Maybe because it just feels so shocking. The people that I considered friends, friendly people, who generally want the best for me, are they my friends anymore? These people who i have hung out with numerous times, they are just that, people i have hung out numerous times, for years even! I ( Read more... )

So I'm reading this teenager/pop culture/almost embarrassed to tell you what it is book and it has made me think of something. She is in love with two people in the book. And she says that if she were living in a normal world where she had never met guy #1 than she would be perfectly happy with the guy ranked #2. She calls the guy she loves ( Read more... )

such girl drama within my friends from high school circle. Nothing to do with me, but still makes it uncomfortable. I feel like Bridget Jones sometimes with all my friends. Them with all their significant others and me you know and all my non-significant happenings. I wish I had this fabulous single life where I was just out and about all ( Read more... )

so a new job. I like it so far. It allows me to do anything that I want within reason. So I get to be creative and I'm excited about that.
I need to go to Alabama soon. I have tons of time off in the winter so I'm going to try to do that.

So, I let Annie in my room. She is sitting on the floor, missing my mom. So the boy and i are going to baltimore tomorrow to do whatever. The body tour. You know where you said dead bodies with their skin off. I smell like OFF spray. Mads came over today and we took a walk, then it started raining. But not the good rain...the pissy rain. ( Read more... )

I went outside with my bathing suit on and towel in tow. First pool was full of little children jumping and such (not conducive to my want for a relaxing swim) and the second pool was full of brown pine needles. The water was cloudy and altogether not inviting. So I reluctantly came back to the apartment dry. I was about to put on some of my ( Read more... )

Living with Jackie has made me appreciate gospel music. I'm in love with him. He makes me happy, really happy. My job on the other hand has caused me to have stomach ulcers. My boss told me that my life is not as important as meeting with the family. Then she has been e-mailing me and calling me to tell me she needs my doctor's note, she needs ( Read more... )