oh my, my, am i really this unstable, moody, that i could change up these thoughts that compete so swiftly and make them disappear as soon as they came?  they give me no warning, never did they, never will they, and strike up good conversation, but not the cocktail party conversation. i am nothing less than highly irratated. what is the point of ( Read more... )

wow.

i am quite elated right about now.

i got into a huge fight with my mom and basically told her off. she tried that pity shit and acted like her feelings were hurt. i dont need a fucking guilt trip. she said just as many, if not, hurtful things to me. i absolutly, by all means, need to get a job fast. i cant be at home if this is how its gona be.

on a more random note, frank climbed ( Read more... )

i feel lost and unexplained. i dont even know where to start, and i hate that feeling, that feeling of just utter confusion. utter confusion about everything, about where i want to start, where i want it to end, and so on.

things are so different now, id like to believe, yet im so scared to, and i need a new journal to go along with that. someday ( Read more... )

i feel lost and unexplained. i dont even know where to start, and i hate that feeling, that feeling of just utter confusion. utter confusion about everything, about where i want to start, where i want it to end, and so on.

things are so different now, id like to believe, yet im so scared to, and i need a new journal to go along with that. someday ( Read more... )

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no, it does not, not really. but it's funny to think how often you think of things until they suck you under. when in reality most of the things you think of dont require that much fucking thought. just do it already. i like impulse. because it requires no real thinking. and if you do think, it is just artificial thinking. because once you decide ( Read more... )

hmmm. i dont think so.

i cant fucking believe it. one more and it's gone.

i had a dream last night. but i dont remember what it was about.

kim comes by to get her plan ticket today.

it'll be pretty boring. but i shouldnt complain, right?

we made plans. we havent talked since school got out. so im excited to see her. lots of fun things ahead with us.

the problem to be fixed has not anserwed me yet. i dont think they ever will. so fuck them. fuck them like they fucked me over.

the official countdown has begun. 11 days left til ( Read more... )