thanks to kelly im listening to  counting crows.

i dont feel so shitty today. even tho some ppl can be so fucking selfish and all they think about is what they want. but never fear, i wouldnt let that get me down. and i have plans for the rest of the week mostly, so i dont have to be alone so much.

i hate being alone sometimes. i think about ( Read more... )

im so sorry to complain about things, but sometimes i think that, ok things arent so, so horribly bad, (not as bad as they used to) but that they are just waiting for me. what do i want? what do i think would make me happy? everyone tells me ppl like you better when your happy, that you have more friends, boyfriends maybe, and that life is just ( Read more... )

my parents are outta town again. my mom needed to take care of some business back in st.louis. so i have the house to myself for two days.

i called my dad today and we talked. my dumb fucking mother wouldnt take me to the post office early enough, so his father's day card won't get to him til like, tommorow. damn her. anyway he took off work today ( Read more... )

oh the reason i fucking love them and you, you're all so beautiful, with your learned smiles, learned bond, and your copycat mouth moving to mock me, its all the same, so don't you dare, don't you fucking dare, and all the damn sluts stand around in this room, waiting-with smoky eyes, and saying-with so red lips, something i cannot hear, so turn ( Read more... )

I meant to come back to put out bliss
But the style is crumbling, covered canned
It was sick and no you dont even know how it comes
Shifts then gets ruined by you fucking slobs

But it's classical anyways

I can't help it makes me so sick over and over
It sits stiff bound with no heart
Fine cause this is where the seperation starts arising
I can see it ( Read more... )

wooo wooo woo, i get to see hayley! yay! we are gonna have so much fun and its so great to look forward to.

talked to anisha today. that was good. i missed her since she went on her trip.

going to bass in about 15 mins. later.

im at alisha's house right now. im talking to her mom right now. shes funny. i dont know what me and alisha are doin. going out? i dunno. it doesnt matter.

i feel a very little bit better. maybe its because i went shopping. i dunno. lets see how long the feeling last, tho. i think i might need the push.

i do not know where to start. the level of shittiness my life is in is nearly unexplainable. how could things be so wrong? how could everybody just leave me? ppl are so fucked up. ppl are so mean. i am sick of ppl leaving ugly, hateful anonymous comments in my journal, im sick of ppl trying to get rid of me. i have no fucking friends and i want to ( Read more... )

busy day yesterday. chicago with abby. good random shit.

shit to do today. ahhhhh