Well its summer, and as is usual with summer I'm bored with everything now, and I think its time for some change. Yes that does mean that I am in fact bored with being a rebellious little ass and doing all the things I'm not supposed to. I realized this the other night as I was doing some of these things and I wasn't having any fun doing so. ( Read more... )

Honestly, I'm sorry, I didn't want you to have to find that out that way, actually at all for that matter, but things have changed in more ways than you or I will ever know and thats why things are the way they are now. The things that have been done have been done and they don't change the person we knew, they don't make the person we know now. ( Read more... )

I finally got ahold of my copy of Diary of a Drug Fiend, and boy is it one of the craziest accounts of anytheing I've read in a really long time. Its amazing that one person can ingest taht many drugs in that short a period of time without killing themselves. Hopefully this new look aon addiction will help me to quit some of the things I that I ( Read more... )

Jesus Christ even 200 mgs of this sleeping pill won't fucking knock me out, my fingers feel weird and I can't seem to sleep no matter what I do. This is starting to be ridiculous.

Fuck this shit I'm sick of it...

Great weekend so far, first one in a long ass time. Hung out with some people I never thought I would, had a little "family time" with a couple people who don't really understand how we are related to each other but know we are in some way. Hung out with Clay and Daren for the first time in a while. Hung out with Mr. Morgan for the first time in ( Read more... )

Well well, its been a long time since I updated so here I am updating, tonight = surprising, can't really say why just very surprising. Things looking up more than usual now too, can't really say why, except for tonight, when I realized this is now the last summer that anyone will be here for good. We'll all be gone soon enough, and I will either ( Read more... )

Man, I love debating people on creationism versus evolution, atheism vs christianity. I won't even get started here, I'll say it once and for all though I'm an atheist through and through, but if in my lifetime I find undenial proof in the other direction I'll be the first to say, "well looks like I was wrong" until then, more and more proof keeps ( Read more... )

Well I've gotten out of the habbit of updating buts its 1:38 am on a beautiful sunday morning, actually its fuckin cold and shitty out but hell. Right now I'm waiting on dad to call cuz hes out celebrating his birthday tonight, so in other words he won't be walking in the door on his own. Last night got owned by stout in boxing, man I'm slow, the ( Read more... )

Well son of a bitch it seems like I've finally run across some good luck, or a dose of fate whatever you want to call it...things seem to be going my way for once now I just wish I could fix some of the things that are wrong with me so I can make everything seem normal again, but I guess I can't fix the natural chemicals in my head so I'll just ( Read more... )