I cant take it im sorry.............:(

Well im tired of waiting for something that is never going to happen so i have started talking to someone.Just friends atm but never know what is going to happen.I hope im making the right choice..I love Amee and gabe but i need to get over this crap.If Amee really loved me now that im seeing someone she would try anything to get me back if she ( Read more... )

2.50 (a beer) x 4 ( per night) x 7 (a week) x 4 ( a month ) =280

Um ouch

I keep jabbering on this thing..........Maybe because im home alone and bored plus drinking ( Read more... )

Well i have decided to dye my hair and cut trim or whatever it this weekend.I have a choice between black , electric blue or a million other colors......Oh yea I am about to get a raise woot woot forgot to say that but thought baby momma would read it and after a few beers i decided to post anyways.I also will be taking over order fulfilment area ( ( Read more... )

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1. Nine Inch Nails - Terrible Lie (4:59)
2. Nine Inch Nails - Sin (4:15)
3. Nine Inch Nails - March of the Pigs (4:13)
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Well i went to baby momma's to drop off child support and Oh did that go well.Well im happy at myself i didnt get emotional at all woot me but i am starting i mean scratch that i do hate her now its time to move on.I would prefer to be with her but she makes no attempts and hasnt for four months since the seperation to get back with me.I wasted 4 ( Read more... )

Well Baby momma called to see if i was ALRIGHT?How the fuck could i be alright im heart broken.God she really does know how to make me relapse into depression.I was doing fine by not talking to her.Grrr must try to hold on to sanity but i love her so much and just want us to be together but that is never going to happen so i need to move on and ( Read more... )

Bah im starting to drink too much geez never ithought i was this weak.Im letting her destroy me and i need to stop this shit.I need someone to kick my arse for this nonsense.She isnt worth all this i have done all i can.Now to do better than i have ever done for me and my son.I love him and need to be stronger than this.

Ok after Sunday's events i think i am completely through with Amee.I am tired of childish crap.I lvoe AMee and all i want is to be a family with her and my son but to have to deal with all this shit i cant it eats me away and i cant handle it.I have done everything i can and all i have got is nothing.How har dis it to move back in and get shit over ( Read more... )