life sucks. i know it does. it cant get much worse from an emotional stand point. i care about my ex alot. i miss her so much.

life really sucks. i am still in love with my ex-gf zenaida. i cant help it. she is everything i want. she is the only thing i want. nothing more nothing less. getting over her will be the hardest i can ever do. i dont know where to begin. ive tried to start talking to other girls but it is not the same. there is this one jewish white girl there ( Read more... )

I am the son ( Read more... )

ok the day is almost over and tomorrow is a big day. i got a job interview.

tomorrow, if me and zenaida were still together and not spacing the way we are, we would make 5 months. just one more month and she would be my longest relationship. i pray to god this space ends soon. i do love her.

ok i am an idiot. i just messed up badly a lil while ago. i forgot my password to this and when they asked me the username for the password i wanted i fucked up and put someone elses name. im so use to typing that other name to read their journal that i typed it like second nature. im a fuckin moron. i did not do it intentionally. i did it as ( Read more... )

i am a frustrated person. everything has fallen upon my shoulders recently and i feel as if im being crushed. i dont know wat to do anymore ( Read more... )

my last entry was a weird one becuz of being upset and didnt really make much sense (wacked out in the brain). well right now this one is a clearer form of explaination to one of the forth mentioned subjects from the previous entry ( Read more... )

today has been filled with bittersweetness.... me and my ex r talking again... i am extremely happy about that... i really do love her... i went to go apply for a job with the city of miami and when i got to the employment office they told me that the position was already filled so i couldnt apply..... i got home and i had a nasty argument with my ( Read more... )

it has been a while since my last entry. i am typing this entry hoping that a certain person reads it. i have alot to say and alot to get off my chest. on this day it has been 2 days since my break up with zenaida. she was the love of my life. i dont care if she doesnt agree with that but she was. i know now that i cant return to her becuz eventho ( Read more... )

i went out last night and tried to get hammered. almost did but im getting ahead of myself in this story. let me start from the beginning ( Read more... )