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Eyes lit, I pawn short breaths
Survived the hospital with fairly minimum trauma. I feel like I am missing something. When I get back to the neurologist on the 28th I guess I will have all the answers, or at least more than I have now. The weather is getting cool, its nice. I think I'll sleep with the window open. -
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I have to spend Thursday night in to the hospital. I check in at 8:30 Thursday night for some outpatient procedure and they are releasing me at 5PM on Friday. You should definitely be careful what you wish for because I have been moping around wishing for a day off work and this wasn’t exactly how I imagined getting it. If I had some one to bring ( Read more... ) -
There's a hole in my neighbourhood down which of late I cannot help but fall
The tears found their way out today and they had to be some of the worst but I have held them in so hard. Its this fucking nine inch nails show. It means too much and ignoring it will not make it go. This was the start of everything, maybe I feel llike I didn't live a day before the show happened. What does this fucking show mean, the almsot exact ( Read more... ) -
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When I sit down and really think about it I can’t believe its October. This is the last quarter of the year and it has been one of the worst years of my life. I think I say that about every year. Either I am critically negative or my life sucks and I am making a lot of bad decisions. Last month was a rotten month. I think all of my doctor’s gave up ( Read more... ) -
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SATURDAY
If you’re in Jax and you aren’t absolutely committed to anything else this Saturday night come out to the Ivy, its at 113 East Bay Street downtown two block east of Marks, The Dive Bar and the old TSI. Fuck Factory, wherever its at these days and the Pearl too okay? Bring your ass out. I’ll be working the door Saturday, I can’t get you in for free ( Read more... ) -
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Last night the temper went out and gave way to depression. Sleep deprivation has escalated from a nuisance to a hindrance. I tried to give up but just because you decide not to think about things doesn’t mean they aren’t there and then piling up nearly kills you. I want out. I was going to take Physics and Speech during the fall so that I could ( Read more... ) -
Dear God of Unholy Ranting Madness
Lets just say the past week or so has been brutal. For each good thing that comes my way, at least two things, of 10 times the caliber are on its heels and I will not get the door shut before they parade in and trample me. I have tried to take each blow in stride and to be frank, its not fucking happening. Tuesday I could tell that I was ( Read more... ) -
Lucky Time Never Stops
Its cruel the way things turn out, the way wishes are granted. I wish and I wish and I wish for my cake and only do I get it when I am too sick to eat it.