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six month stasis
You know what makes me mad? Why i hated the idea of her from the beginning? It's because you never would admit that you liked her, and even when I forced you to admit it, you felt guilty about it and wouldn't accept it as part of yourself. For all your highfalutin ideals about polyamory, there was something holding you back from being truthful to ( Read more... ) -
fuck this job
it hasn't even been a year yet and i am so ready to be done with this ( Read more... ) -
whine whine
sometimes, i feel like i come here only to complain :/ that's no good. i really do still have philosophical discussions with myself, every once in a while. i just tend not to have time for them as much anymore, and they seem to be fueled mainly by warm sunny days spent outdoors. not many of those lately, but it's been much nicer temperature wise in ( Read more... ) -
catch-up
four weeks.
*shakes finger at herself* bad kitten.
so, here it is, moments to the holidays, and i've four weeks' work of stuff to catch y'all up on.
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fuck you, internet
RAWR.
i hate this, because it seems like it's working, lulls you into that sense of complacency, and then BAM, you have no more internets. yes, yes, fiddle with the router and the wireless as much as you want, your internet is gone until i decide to give it back. and if i do give it back, it's only for about 1/2 hr, then i'll disappear again while ( Read more... ) -
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it seems like there's so much going on of such importance in my friend's lives that my little whinings are really quite silly ( Read more... ) -
scattered thoughts
jealousy - different levels of tolerance depending on expectations; desire to be only object of desire, despite this being an unrealistic expectation; competing with faceless others? competing with ideal. insecurity. personal handicap ( Read more... ) -
extremes
i just have to say, it seems that even while things get so much better, things get so much worse. i feel like there's some karmic law that requires really bad things to happen, just to balance out the really good things. and yet, to have no chance of goodness would be even worse. -
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