I am raw nerves scraping. I don't wince, i blink ( Read more... )

the cancer might come back. you might die. you are not allowed to be upset by hypotheticals. you've pretended not to be upset; now you have to pretend not to be a liar. you do not know if you are comforted or made fearful by death. the ego is like salt. satisfying but unhealthy. excess in tears. you are not your name, your accomplishments, your ( Read more... )

Spinning glass threads to support ( Read more... )

"you've got no sense of self," said one to the other ( Read more... )

In the hideous sunset of a blushing star, the black cutout of a Christ figure ( Read more... )

A life exists, just barely, in stroboscopic memories, spun backwards in dreams. Forward, the steps it takes in sync, half steps per Image, maybe less, maybe more, but always looking for a rhythm in the sputtering movements of a body. Lead or led, interminably the question persists. Sure of every footfall, it stumbles. The curb a quarter of an inch ( Read more... )

always tomorrow. there'll be a notebook, pens, so easy. Take em from work like everything else ( Read more... )

There is a man, on the sidewalk, at 2 am. There is man alone in the ink. There a man alone, a ballerina on cracks, dragging across concrete. There is a man studying the subtle variances, grades, and geological makeup of what supports him. there is a man walking on the sidewalk at 2 am and the same man returns like a ghost, but with meaning, ( Read more... )

A blizzard doesn't need thunder because the wind will find every crack and roar through it. it's all around but still personal. songs whistling to you just because your ears have holes and everything else shaking and yelling because it's in the way ( Read more... )

and on and on like that. spurious glances around, looking for something. understanding, disbelief, anything that an be articulated. and i love everyone, and i want everyone around all the time, but mostly i want a sentence developed in my head spoken by someone on the outside clear of my prejudices ( Read more... )