Has'nt gone away since friday. I had to drag my best friend to an ambulance friday. He tried to committ suicide. And because of me. Basically. i don't take any responsiblity for his stupid actions. but i'm the straw that broke the cammel's back basically. And now i don't know if i'm going to be allowed to see him. Or if it would be very good at all ( Read more... )

The power to change ourselves. . . and others.

If there is one thing I've learned its that

talking changes e v e r y t h i n g.                   So often if you just look below the surface, for even just a moment. You'll discover so much beauty that you never knew was there.

We do have the power to change others. And just our voices alone can set ( Read more... )

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4 in the morning. . . lyrics

Wakin up to find another day
The moon got lost again last night
But now the sun has finally had it's say
I guess I feel alright

But it hurts when I think,
When I let it sink in
It's all over me
I know you're here, in the dark
I'm watchin you sleep, it hurts a lot

[Bridge]
And all I know is you've got ( Read more... )

Love ( Read more... )

Give me release
witness me
I am outside
give me peace

Heaven holds a sense of wonder
and I wanted to believe
that I'd get caught up
when the rage in me subsides

In this white wave
I am sinking
in this silence
in this white wave
in this silence
I believe

Passion chokes the flower
'til she cries no more
possessing all the beauty
hungry still for more

Heaven holds a ( Read more... )

Realization is a crazy thing. What we want. and how we go about getting it is a crazy thing. I'm realizing so much of what has created my own tragedy. It's my inability to be as honest...as straightforward..and to the point as possible. I"m incapable of showing what i really feel..and what i really want. When the day finally comes. that i can be ( Read more... )

Deepest Blue-
Is it a sin.

Is it a sin, to love again?
 I cannot win, this pain's not fair
 And yes I walked across the highest mountain
 And yes I painted you a pretty sky
 Now you say its over

Forgot to tell you I am sorry
 Never had the time to lie
 Now its like a sad old story
 Why do lovers always cry
 I never had the time to worry
 I never had the ( Read more... )

Inertia
Kirsty Hawkshaw

Passing by we risk the rise and fall
Simply into inertia
And when the fires burn it all ends up in smoke

And I did'nt mean to burn you.

And I did'nt mean to burn you.

And when the sky weeps, are you open?
To understand all the moments
And when we're lost we always find a way back
Because I'd never want to hurt you

I'd never ( Read more... )

Thats been my life lately. I've been experimenting with life. With love. and with the many forms this can manifest in. And as much as a stuggle it has been for me to be honest with all parties in my life. I'm taking steps towards ridding my life of secrets. I've realized that no one probably cares. And if they do. . . its only because they care ( Read more... )

I don't think i've ever felt so comfortable in my life. So accepting of things. My anxiety has completly gone away. I feel like I have stopped anticipating failure. Like I have really come to feel empowered and capable. Mostly because I've changed the way I see myself. There is a resounding peace right now because I have really completed a lot of ( Read more... )