Enlightenment is a rare combination of innocence and intelligence, having words for expression and, at the same time, being very silent.
In that state, the mind is fully in the present moment.
Whatever is necessary is revealed to you in such a natural and spontaneous way, you just sit and the song of the nature flows through you.

Don't ask ( Read more... )

Why desire at all? Desiring a state of freedom from desire will not set you free.
Nothing can set you free, because you are free.
See yourself with desireless clarity, that is all.

It's been two months since my last update in here, quite a lot has happened....

Greg and I finally broke up, like everyone didn't see that one coming, apparently he dispised everything about me.  Oh well, he was letting himself go anyways, and the way I see it is at least I didn't get dumped (he wanted to work things out, I don't have that kind of ( Read more... )

Wow, I haven't written in here for a while.  To be perfectly honest, I haven't had the time.  Between both my jobs and sleep I have no time to myself anymore.  I work from midnight untill five am at one, and from six thirty to four at the other.  I come home, take a shower, eat occasionally, and sleep.  So if  any of you guys need to get ahold of ( Read more... )

Sorry about all of the "Don't think..." subjects, I've had six underground by the SneakerPimps stuck in my head for a good three weeks and those are my favorite lines....

Received a text from Neko "We need to talk."  I'm either in trouble for SOMETHING  or he's picked up on the fact that we don't talk for weeks on end....never good in a ( Read more... )

Last night was Koi's birthday party. I was utterly disgusted with myself. My behavior was abhorring! I hate what I have become, but I can't go back to what I was...I've tried many times, and I obviously failed at them all....I don't know what to do. The world I created for myself was destroyed...I helped to destroy it...but the thing is, I don' ( Read more... )

Today is October second. Today is the day I die inside. Today is the day I remember my greatest mistake. I remember that had I not been a spoiled little attention hungry brat one of the only truly good, and genuine, people on this earth would still be alive. Had I not been a little needy brat her two year old son would be alive as well....... ( Read more... )

A friend of mine is in the hospital.....they want to put her into counseling cuz they think she's insane. They say she tried to kill herself. But what they don't understand is that it really was a mistake! She didn't mean to take what she did, fuck she had a HEADACHE and it was mislabeled ( Read more... )

Well, I went up to Davis and returned. Unfortunately I filed my FAFSA in march before the due date...but it's first come first serve...sooo NO FINANCIAL AID FOR RICHARD! I cannot afford $14,000 every two months! So I signed a defferal...which enrolled me in next year. I've been delayed an entire year....this saddens me, and gives me the ( Read more... )

Someone called me dramatic. Not someone who knows me, someone who is basing this on what they've read in this journal. They should die, no one stupid enough to take an lj as true to the writers personality should be permitted to live. That is all I have to say.