Each way I turn, I know I'll always try! To Break the circle that's been placed around me ( Read more... )

Tonight was VERY different...

I got drunk and drank Absinthe for the first time. I spoke of lost love with a lost loved one, and somehow I ended up naked in the ocean at 1am...

I can't sleep anymore. Why?

My eyes have turned into something else. I look at pictures of myself taken in 2001 and I can understand why a monster is perceived now. I guess that was my peak, it's all downhill from here...

FUN Stuff tonight, a very pleasing mood indeed. There is nothing like freezing cold beer on a warm night. Though there are no immediate connections...a memory haunts me tonight.

Imagine....

Black Coffee + Young Lust/Love + Gorgeous Music being heard for the first time + 3am + Hearing your heart's work + Never wanting the moment to end...

So much emptiness and nothing to fill it with...Why does this happen to me? I can't sleep at night anymore, my dreams taunt me, and I'm a nervous wreck. I stutter when I try to speak and my gaze is fixed on the ground...Back at square one. Where did my life go?

A diffent kind of pain and a different kind of fear. Things are being forced in my head and proving to be a massive burden. "I will conform if I have to, but just stop all of this ( Read more... )

So I had this dream ( Read more... )

I woke up at 7pm bathed in soft, dark blue light. The window was open and the fan was blowing in my face, It wasn't cold and it wasn't hot...almost perfect. I almost felt as if I had fell into a coma and woken up in the middle of June. After I sat up and pondered over today's beauty, A strange feeling rushed over me. I think I feel homesick...

I can't seem to sleep anymore..+
It only comes easy under certain circumstances-+

Something is growing in my mind+ at the moment, I can't believe myself anymore...I've never really known what to believe in my life.

I think it's funny how one can believe that their life is heading in a definite---------->Direction, <------then "something" makes ( Read more... )

I think if the sounds in my head were audible at certain points of the day, they'd sound a little something like...