I need to be taken home. So many lifetimes spent staring at blank screens and empty spaces. Nothing is certain and I can't feel my heart, as it is being pulled in different directions. Son of a Bitch...

DisorderRatingParanoid:LowSchizoid:HighSchizotypal:HighAntisocial:ModerateBorderline:LowHistrionic:LowNarcissistic:ModerateAvoidant:LowDependent:LowObsessive-Compulsive:Moderate
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Brown, A Brown that I can not erase out of my head. Possibilities that will never be fulfilled or realized ( Read more... )

I had some strange conversations today.+=
A few things were said without a lot of thought behind them, and after saying them...I discovered they were true.==_-
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.....some people have eyes that I can't lie to.....

Surprising results. Most went well, some emotions were stirred up inside. Dreaming of brown eyes e v e r y night. Maybe it's just a perverse obsession...
Sleep doesn't come easy, and I fear the condition will only worsen.

I can feel myself losing interest again. I'm beginning to question my efforts. It's sad that I find myself with these feelings after such a journey. I think I should give myself another deadline. I suppose I'll give myself 5 months and we'll see how I feel ( Read more... )

Hello again ( Read more... )

-and I'm starting to laugh like an animal in pain ( Read more... )

Work is somewhat underway now, even if only at the verbal level. Obscure dreams, I was saving someone's ducks from a 20ft deep pond and then realised that I hated that person, so I gave up. I was then at a party behind some train tracks where I got drunk and hung out with some crackheads (I was watching bumfights last night). I returned to the pond ( Read more... )

A full week with no day off. Isn't that against the law??