Hmmm...Everything went as expected. I actually felt pleasure again. Pleasure seems to elude me these days. We'll see what it's like next time ( Read more... )

nearly 3am and I am on my 4th glass of red wine and on one sleeping pill ( Read more... )

And thus I clothe my naked villainy
With old odd ends, stol'n forth of holy writ;
And seem a saint, when most I play the devil.

DRunk, so forgive the bad English ( Read more... )

I feel the passion fading. What would life be like without that which makes me "who I am". My abilities...

One more evening is in the works with the same plan and layout as last year. More details as they become available....if I feel like letting anyone know.

As I drove away, I discovered I was leaving more than the obvious behind...

So one more time again??+++---
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++I promise this one will be memorable in one way or another. I need a vacation from myself. If only I could be alone in Iceland or Germany somewhere.

I wish I could destroy...

Isn't it sad how one can never be faithful except to one's own pleasure? Absolute rock bottom if you ask me.

+--+++_--=++++You are not loved----=+++--=+++

Moments will never be stolen from me again, and sleep will come easy knowing the truth.+..

If only I would've opened my eyes and seen everything for what it really was...

So this is what it all comes down to? A nervous lie masquerading as an excuse? Isn't it funny how one's intentions can accidentally be revealed? Sitting here, all that I can think of is the wasted hours spent bleeding over false hopes and pretend friendships. How immature and childish was I? Maybe I haven't matured, because I still think you have ( Read more... )