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i have developed sleep apnea. i dont know how or why. i dont even snore. i just know that i wake up every half hour, gasping for air. it feels like someone hit the off switch for my lungs and i have to manually restart them by jumping up in bed and sucking in air in a panic ( Read more... )

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how many of you out there still read this thing? say 'aye'.

dont be embarrassed, come on out of the woodwork.

fear of death is so futile. and yet it grips me so uncontrollably. around every corner i'm afraid i'm about to meet my impending doom. though, i'm a firm believer that everything has a purpose, and i'm not sure mine is to die quite yet ( Read more... )

i can feel the energy of summer brewing, the restlessness coming to a head. today i was literally itching to go outside, but had nothing to do out there or no one to do it with. so i forced my sister to play frisbee with me in the yard ( Read more... )

who wants to give blood with me on thursday?

i just read the past 80 entries of this thing and it makes it sound like i have an absolute miserable existence ( Read more... )

being sick sucks dick. if anyone has an instant mono-cure, please, please let me know.

i sat at the diningroom table, my hands and a van gogh coffee mug contrasting against the pure white tablecloth. it seemed that my hands and this mug were all that i saw for miles. i just found out that i did worse than i thought this semester. worse than i thought means pretty bad. the apathy's choking grip is gone for now, but i'm certainly ( Read more... )